FaZzyLoGiCa says....

Custard Pudding with Fruit Cocktail

2011-10-17T23:19:00.001+08:00

How to make an easy and simple custard pudding for tea time?

Stuffs that you need to make custard pudding are mainly :

A packet of Custard Powder
Fresh Milk
Sugar
Ideal milk
Canned fruit cocktail

We will make the custard pudding into these containers. Got this from Tupperware. Cute and colorful rite??

First, mix the custard powder and freah milk together.

Next, add in ideal milk.

Then, pour it in a pot with medium fire. Add in about 3-4 cups of water in it while stirring.

Put in sugar about 4-5 tablespoon. And stir it.

Keep stirring it. Add a spoon full of Butter. This is to make the texture of the puding shining nicely.

2nd part, prepare your colurful tupperware.

Once the custard pudding ready, make sure that the pudding by testing it on a plate to ensure the mixture surface is not sticky.

Now, put the mixture into the cups. Quickly before it gets cold and sticky.

Third part, u need to prepare the sauce. Using Ideal milk, let it stir in a pot for a while. Add in sugar a bit as much as u like.

Let ur pudding cool itself about 30 mins and put it in a fridge until you are ready to serve it.

For serving, take it out from the cup, and put it on a nice serving plate.

Pour fruit cocktail surrounding the pudding.

Pour the sauce that u made earlier on top of the pudding and the fruits.

It's ready to be served! Yummy!

The Letter

2011-04-05T23:51:00.001+08:00

I just got my letter.
Eventhough i'm not ready, i'm just gonna go with the flow.

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The Quarter-Life Crisis by unknown

2011-02-08T22:34:00.007+08:00

Got this from FidaAishah's blog, tho i remembered reading it somewhere before. But it doesn't really hit me back then.

So today i read it again and again.....

and Ouch! I relate to this so much!

So, feel free to read it k~ And tell me if u feel the same too....

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

BINGGO!

Transform!

2011-02-07T18:46:00.002+08:00

i'm changing my blog to a new passion.

Let's share delicious yummy but very the easy simple recipes!

i promised i'll update at least once a month for recipes.

:: OMG this is totally contradict with my diet mission by April 2011 ::

Who doesn't LOVE Cheese Cake?

2011-02-05T12:21:00.014+08:00

My first ever Cheese cake experiment was a Success!!!!It's really easy! And for that, i'm gonna share it with everyone!

Please, bare in mind, that this is not the actual complete recipe...

This one is fairly easy especially for me to do....

Ingredients:

Oops, u supposed to use 2 x 250g of Philadelphia Cream Cheese tau. Thx to Along for buying me another one.

1. First, u need to crush Bicsuit Marie like this.

Crush it until its really really crushed, like this.

2. While doing that, u can melt the butter. Cut it into cubes, and put it in the microwave for 1-2 mins.

It should melt like this... Okey, let it cool a bit.

3. Now, take an empty bowl and put in 3 cups of crushed biscuits into it. Make a hole in the middle of the crushed biscuits and pour in the melted butter bit by bit and mix it together.

Then put the crust into a round baking pan like this.

Make sure its really pressed into bottom of the pan.

See, this is the crust or the base of the cheese cake. Let it cool in either fridge of freezer.

Freezer is much faster. :)

4. Now Second Part, the best part!

The Creamy cheese that everyone loves it!

Cut both Philadelphia cream cheese into cubes with a 3/4 cup of caster sugar and beat it until its creamy.

5. Ok, once it's all creamy and glossy, pour it into the baking pan,on top of the chilled biscuit crust. Sorry, forgot to snap this steps. hehee...

Let it chilled again in the freezer for like 2 hours....

6. After 2 hours, cut peaches into slices. It can be peaches or other fruits as u like.

And arrange the peaches on the chilled cream cheese.

I arranged it like this, but it's up to u....

Lastly, mix 3 spoons of Gelatine in a 1/3 cup of warm water and pour it on top of the peaches. It'll be like a jelly that holds the peaches to the chilled cream cheese.

And, finally after 2-3 hours of waiting, it's ready to be eaten!

This, i'm telling u is so worth it!

The house is warm....

2010-12-19T18:23:00.001+08:00

Some relatives visiting our new crib....

Pakngah n makngah

Maksu, mizah, Chah n Khairullah~

Khairullah caught an alligator... Or crocodile?

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Almost home part 2

2010-12-19T08:52:00.001+08:00

Mixed of pre loved n new stuffs....

This part needs drastic improvement.

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Almost home

2010-12-19T08:47:00.001+08:00

Facilities ade, sile guna sehingga kurus!

Sesuai untuk semua umur...

Lepas ni, for sure sakit pinggang.

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Tiramiss-youuuu!

2010-11-30T00:50:00.002+08:00

Ok so out of the blue, Along was craving for tiramisu, which then makes me crave for it too. So we thought maybe we should make one today!

I always loved tiramisu eversince my unidays. Najwa n huda were the ones who used to make tiramisu back in brissy. And it was absolutely delicious n so EASY! Dang, makes me miss those days so much!

Let me share how to make tiramisu, a simple way. I noticed that we have the passion to make italian food, because it was simple n easy!
Tiramisu is one of simple and easy italian desserts. It's creamy and cheesy ! Nyummy!

What u need are:

Spongefingers, Cream cheese, whipping cream, eggs, sugar, coffee n chocolate.

How to do it?
1. Separate egg whites n egg yolks. I used 4 eggs for this.

2. Mixed egg yolks and sugar. Beat it in the mixer.

Beat it till it becomes pale n thick like this.

3. Next, mixed the egg whites and a pinch of salt in a separate bowl. Whisked it till it becomes foamy.

4. Now, mixed cream cheese with egg yolks mixture.

After beating it, mixed it with the egg whites.

5. Beat it till it becomes thick n creamy. Add whipping cream to make it more creamy.

6. Now, to prepare the base, first make a cup of coffee drinks and let it cool for awhile.

7. Bring out a square glass dish or whatever shape u like.

8. Now dip each of the spongefingers in a bowl with coffee drink that u make earlier, let it absorb a bit of the coffee (but dont make it too wet, it'll break) and sort it in the squaredish.

9. Sort first layer and spread out the creamy sauce on top of it evenly.

10. Make a second layer and spread the creamy sauce evenly.

11. Last but not least, sprinkled chocolate or cocoa powder on top of it. I used grated dark chocolate for more chocolatey taste.

And voilaaaa, its done!
But u need to put it in the fridge for the night before u can start diggin it.

And, for me, i cant wait to have a taste of it tmrw morning!

Have a try ok!

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Salam Aidiladha!

2010-11-28T02:53:00.002+08:00

Have'nt been writing quite a long time.

Have you guys watch Julie/Julia? That movie inspired me to cook!

So today let me share with you an easy meal that you can do yourself at home!

It's a very simple pasta where u can just pick n mix any ingredients that you like.

1. Boil half water in a pot and then add 1 packet of 500gm pasta. In my case, i used Spiral~

2. While waiting for the pasta to be boiled, lets prepare the ingredients!

I like to put chicken in my pasta. So what i did, i chopped boneless chicken meat and stir fried it halfway. Before that, mixed the chopped chicken meat with Mixed Herb, salt and Pepper. So that your chicken will have some taste when we add it in the pasta.

3. Next, dont forget to stir dry your Spiral pasta. Let it cool down while we continue with the other ingredients.

Now, lets chopped Capsicums, tomatoes and mushrooms!
You can use the traffic light capsicums because its colourful and it added up the taste in the pasta!

Chopped them at any size that u like!

4. Next, take out the fry pan and put a little Olive Oil, once its hot, add in the Spiral Pasta.

Let it cook for a while and at the same time add in Olive Oil bit by bit and Mixed Herb and stir it.

Then, you can start adding in the colourful capsicums, and mushrooms and stir it. Make sure that it blends nicely in the pasta.
Again, put in Olive oil, mixed herb and salts.

Add in chicken, and tomatoes and stir it.

Last but not least, sprinkle Mozarella cheese powder in the pasta. Make sure you sprinkle it thoroughly within the pasta.

I forgot to take picture while adding all the ingredients together.

5. Voila! Your pasta is ready to be served!

Ain't it simple and easy? Wait till u try it, it's simply delicious!

So, why wait? go and try~

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I am loving this!

2010-10-30T22:16:00.001+08:00

I can do this and i can do that! ~

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what up!

2010-10-24T13:03:00.001+08:00

testing

The House

2010-07-10T19:44:00.003+08:00

We went to see the house, the newly build apartment, at Puchong Prima.....

It's lovely! And we love it! It has swimming pool, like right in front of our unit....

We can't wait to swim! And it feels like we're living in a resort with some wildlife animals, noticed the elephants and girrafe? Erm, maybe more like a zoo.... eheee....

It's gonna be an adventure to be living there, right?!

So, in next 2 weeks, we'll be getting the keys and we can directly move in already. But, first thing first... gotta have the interior furnished first right. And since it's gonna be the first house we bought, so i'm gonna make sure that we furnish it our way!

I've been thinking about the concepts, how to design the interior, and i came across with this idea....

I wanna make the house as a Modern Minimalistic House!

What do you think?

The pic above sums up the concept that i want. A clutter-free house, with simple and modern furnitures.... white walls with some accent color, just to spice it a little...

It's perfect right?

So, how are we gonna do it...

I googled up and found this!

A checklist from a website that can help you to kick start the perfect plan.

Set your budget

Fill out a simple questionnaire

Get inspiration for your design - look at home decorating magazinesand the gallery pages on site.

Generate your own interior design ideas with a mood board

Choose a color

Think about proportion in the room

Consider layout and arranging the furniture

Think about the lighting design

Consider your curtains/blinds and other window treatments.
Further considerations - pattern and texture

Create a sample board

Go shopping ........ yipppeeeeee! (Don’t forget to keep your budget in mind)

Decide on the order of works

Do it!! ... or better still get someone else to do it for you (yes please)

So...happy planning! .... for me!

2010-06-23T21:49:00.003+08:00

Syukur Alhamdulillah!

I bet today everyone is smiling long enough right after looking at their bank account.

Some might say that it's a lot, some might say it's not enuff. And some might just dont give a dam* bout it.

It's true that if you put your hard work and effort to it, u'll get it. It's all rezeki. Each everyone receives differently. Some might got cash more, some might got other things, like loved ones, children and etc.

But more money means more responsibility. Higher expectations.

To some people, money is everything. Sometimes it changed people to be a monster.

Keep on bragging, my friend.

I wanna see how long does this thing will make u monster.... err i mean, richer.....

2010-06-22T22:35:00.006+08:00

I guess i wanna start blogging again now. I have been missing for half a year with no updates.

I'm glad to say that i'm still here, i'm still breathing and i'm still waiting.

And in fact, i got a new baby now that encourages me to start writing again.

But, my post now is gonna be random. I dont wanna tell story. I just wanna say it all out, without having others judging my thoughts.

The past 6 months has been great.

And again, I'm grateful for where i am right now, what i got and how i'm doing.

I'm glad that i took the another path, getting away from my own comfort zones. It started out tough but i wanna do it, just to see whether i can go through it or not. I think i'm ready to take risks now. I'll take it as a challenge now.

Without it, life is super boring and colourless.

Thus, I'm looking forward for more miracles in life. Are u with me?

2009-12-25T23:05:00.004+08:00

credit to: maadi

fuhhhhh....... tiup2 sawang2 dlm blog nih.....
dh lame ditinggalkan.....

dlm otak, mcm2 nk updet, tp slalu hot2 ciken sh*t je...
dlm tak sedar, it's near the end of 2009....
soon it will be 2010....

another year goes by, feeling kinda lost this year....
i have nothing to be proud of....
i'm still living in my own dream, living in the past when the others are all moving on and achieving sumthing.....

i've been busy, and no, my life is not boring, most probably it's empty....
i've tried changing it, but i dont see anything comin.
i envy my frens out there, they are all half way thru it...

but when i see me now, only 1 question there....
will 2010 be a better year for me?

i think, that is up to me to decide, rite?

All in One

2009-08-20T22:20:00.001+08:00

Finally, i have the courage to update my lovely blog. My baby aka My PC had just been returned to me after few days being repaired. Seems like the motherboard had gone 'gaga' since March and i've been hanging on by using Acik's PC as she left it in my room due to the nearest internet network cable for our daily dosage of internet facilities eg.Facebook, YM, email etc....

I have yet to write the story of my life now, how the changes of job position had turned me into somehow a more relaxed person. Will share with all sooner or later....

Last week, i was away for an outstation to Sabah. My first trip ever to Sabah bah~
Not much time to explore around eventho its a 4 days trip where i spent 2 nights at Lahad Datu, and 1 night at Kota Kinabalu.

Contacted my Brissy Junior, Dila who is now working in KK. And she had courteously showed me around, thank God it's Saturday! It was quite a rushing tour as my flight back to KL was in the evening at 4 pm. However, we managed to go to a few places starting at 7 o'clock in the morning!

7am - Photoshoot at Waterfront Explanade
9am - Shopping at Pasar Filipina near waterfront (Lotsa women accessories made out of pearls etc.... my personal advice: please bring more cash, there's a lot of shops and varieties of items to look for)
11:30 am - Sabah Museum (Photoshoot in Taman Warisan
1pm - Admiring Sutera Harbour Resort sceneries (Hoping for a photoshoot, but then my dgcam was out of batt)
2pm - Refresh at Dila's place
3.15pm - Back to the KK Airport

Mind you, the weather was quite hot! And unfortunately for me, since first day i arrived at KK and Lahad Datu, i was having skin allergy due to wearing mask during flight.... oouch... and it gets worse because i was out in the sun and near the sea/beaches....

My personal opinion bout KK, "Well, not bad~" And surely, there is life there... its' quite small but a one happening town. So, perhaps for a transfer....why not KK? Not that i'm asking tho, but just give it a thought....

I arrived KL at 7:30pm on Saturday, and guess what? The next early morning, me and my family had to rush to Tronoh for Acik's convo! Departed from home at 4:30am and arrived as early at 8am... We stopped for half an hour in Tapah for Subuh, breakfast and makeup! I slept almost all the way to Tronoh, penat kut...

So, Acik's finally graduated! Congratulations! I was there as a sister, and also her Second Photographer, coz Nuyue was appointed Official Photographer, since she borrowed Fadh's DSLR. Anyways. i'm happy with my PnS digicam, coz pics taken were all outdoors and my dgcam had really functioned well and nice!

For more of her glorious day's pic, please browse tru her Facebook.... penuh muke dia...

And, as a result of the excitement of Acik's convo day, to reminiscing my previous glorious days (which i think was about 3 years ago....) i too took some memorable pics. And this one i like most!

2009-07-13T22:33:00.003+08:00

Credit: drool

Seeing with eyes closed!

Gotta wake up!

Clock is ticking!

2009-06-01T21:59:00.003+08:00

Latest addition to life happily ever after...
Congrats to Awoi n Syamil~

Hot and Cold

2009-05-05T21:51:00.003+08:00

I just received my 'bestest' birthday present this year!

I really really like it!

Now, please drool over it.... heheh...

Ok...that was the fun part for today.....

I know i haven't been updating my blog for quite some time.
Have been busy and also ran out of idea on what to blog.

Life seems normal, or maybe boring to others since nothing exciting is happening.

Perhaps today, i felt a bit different.
We have a meeting this morning.
I actually feel sad and sorry for myself.

No, i dont really know how to describe the feeling, actually.
It's all mixed up with all sorta feeling.

I felt a sudden sad, angry, anxious, panic, shocked, terrified.
And it was a horrible picture when people start to notice it from my face.
I was so bad in hiding my emotions when it comes to situation like this.
It's like so obvious....
But that is not the problem.

Yeah, i agreed. I have my own weaknesses.
My own worst nightmare.

But the thing that i hate the most is,
I'M SCARED.

Of everything, to move on, to try on.
I dont know what is holding me back.

I believed that everyone around me is sick of it already.

Ah, can i change?
Can i move on?

Can i do this?

Change me please!

Remember The Name

2009-02-09T20:17:00.003+08:00

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 10 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Love Today - Mika

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
All Good Things - Nelly Furtado

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Famous Last Words - MCR

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Tomorrow - Silverchair

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
See You Again- Miley Cyrus

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Jenny - The Click 5

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Ordinary Day - Vanessa Carlton

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Tired of Being Sorry - Enrique Iglesias

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Apologize - One Republic

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
I dont Love you - MCR

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Lullabies - All Time Low

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
CrushCrushCrush - Paramore

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Bittersweet - Sara Bareilles

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Everyday - HSM2 zac Efron & Vanesa Hudgens

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Say (All I Need) - One Republic

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
I dont Give a Damn - Avril Lavigne

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Big Girls Dont Cry - Fergie

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Hey Ya - Outkast

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
To the Moon and Back - Savage Garden

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Used to Love You - John Legend

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Give it To Me - Timbaland ft Nelly & JT

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Remember the name - Fort Minor

*Tengah berkira2 nk update ape dlm blog, came across this while browsing facebook and found it fun. Now, nk tag org plak lah....

Chicz

Nuyue

Rabbit

Yusza

Kemal

Dan semua yg baca blog ini!

Soalan dan jawapan

2009-01-26T07:27:00.003+08:00

Ok... aku dah tau dah
Dalam dunia ni, ade org yg menarek dan ade org yg membosankan.... aku bajet aku adelah org yg membosankan itu.

Mengapakah?

Sebab, setiap kali aku nk buat entry br dlm blog, aku tatau nk citer ape...
Tak keBOSSanan kah?

Maka, aku ingin cube berblog pasal org lain.... bukan pasal gossip ye.... tapi pasal keletah mereka.....
Siapakah?

Sape2 je la, yg bisa buat aku ketawa, sedey, terdiam, mengamuk~

Aku slalu envy dgn org lain.... mereka mcm ade semuanye...

Aku juge ade ape yg mereka ade, tp mereka lebey menggunakannye.
Apekah?

Entah, maybe otak untuk berpikir... dan macam2 lg.

Mari, aku bg contoh org2 di sekeliling aku:

Nomie - dia boleh drive, dia boleh pegi mana2 je sukati.

Chimfenzi - Dia bijak menyembunyikan badan yg besar menjadi kecil di dalam gambar2 dan berjaya membuatkan aku yg lebey kecik sebenarnye menjadi seperti resakse!

Niu Yu - Sentiasa nampak comel, walaupun di umah mcm selebet je, dan dia juge ade ramai kawan2 yg sgt sukakan dia, dan kawan2 dia juge adelah hot2 belake, membuatkan aku pelik cemane dia bleh tersangkut bersama dgn mereka

Zoowa-chan - sgt petah berbicara, walaupun slalu emo. Sgt suke apabila dia
melaser dgn berani nyer terhadap org yg tidak disukai.... tp dia juge sgt sopannn....

Nawharu - sentiasa berfikiran positif, yg kadang2 melanggar realiti, tp disebabkan kepositivitian nye itu lah, dia sentiasa ceria dan suke bergelak ketawa.

Mereka ini br sedikit....

Ade ramai lg, dan banyak lg.

Point nye di sini, mengape aku tidak seperti mereka?

Tidak ade ape2 yg kah yg boleh aku banggakan utk diri aku?

For real

2008-12-30T13:57:00.003+08:00

I wanna say 'unique' actually, but i cant find any image to goes with it.

But, i do agree with the weird thing as well.

I wanna say that i'm weird too, actually.

I'm just weird, like really weird.

...

Nahh.... i just missed going to the office.

Cuti lama2 kat umah buat aku gile weird.

My Best Frens Wedding~

2008-12-24T03:14:00.003+08:00

Happy!

So, who's next? :P

Chop, rewind sket.

Among my batch, actually Salwa is the second one to get married.

Mastq was the first.
Alwi & Mastq
And, yes. I went to witness her Solemnization (chewaah...) and also the wedding reception. Was also appointed as a backup photographer, where in the end, all pics looks like crap to me. Sorry Mastq, i'm so frustrated with my dgcam, especially when using it indoor. Actually, sendiri tak reti gune, suke menyalahkan kamera...
So, dh 2 member kawin. Actually, ramai lg sebenarnye, kalo nk kire kawan skolah, kawan uni, kawan Pet scholar OZ/NZ, kawan ofis ngan keje.
But i always refer my Brissy Batch as a very special and dear one
to me. We sort of have a strong, unique and special bond between us. I think it's bcoz, we've gone thru a lot of things together, and have been there during each others ups and down. I mean, i dunno if others realize it or not, But, i really really do.
And lately, i know i have been quite a distance to everyone... Not keeping in touch for quite some time. I've been a very bad fren, i guess.
And dat is why, on their special days, i will try to be there.
To witness. To give support. To celebrate.
Coz, i think dats wut frens are for. Especially those special ones.
A fren also said that, dapat berkat jadik witness ur frens nikah. I always wonder, is it true. And he said, "No, it's actually a motivation and that the clock is ticking".
And, suddenly, i realized that.... true, the clock is ticking. And i have to go to sleep, coz tmrw tu keje.... Heheh...

Ahh...lari dari kenyataan lagi....

So you think you can talk?

2008-11-08T20:26:00.003+08:00

I hate having dilemmas of having to do things that I dont fancy much. But, somehow that sort of things could be useful to me, they said.

People are unique.
Some people likes to talk.
And some people dont.

Some people talk craps.
And some just prefer to be silent.

What i prefer is, to be a listener.
I'm not saying that i'm a good listener.
But probably i'm not good in speeches.

But now, to survive in this so called global and competent organization, to have that ability is like a big bonus! You'll get noticed straight away,everyone impressed with you, you'll look confidence and most of the time, you'll convince people.

That sounded so great, right.
I bet everyone wants that.

How I wished people can accept the reality that, we human are not perfect. We have the goods and the bads, likes and dislikes etc.

Tapi, practice makes perfect la pulak kan....

I guess i couldn't find any reason to not doing it.
So, just bring it on!

Work it out

2008-11-03T22:15:00.004+08:00

I feel so fresh. Really.

But i gotta feeling that tomorrow is gonna be all pain and
strain!

Ouchh!

But Yeay!

For taking the challenge!

Well, is it worth it?

2008-11-01T09:11:00.003+08:00

It's probably easy to start, but hard to continuosly doing it. Sometimes you'll feel that the things you do, you do it because of others.
You tried to do it for yourself, but ended up being so stress and emo about it.
Some says that one day you'll do it with all the passion that you have. But until that time, you just have to push yourself...
Coz, one fine day it will all be WORTH IT... hope so...
This topic is so general.... not focusing on any... but it does relate to so many things.
Because what you like now is so not what you will be doing...But you can try to learn to like it.... coz maybe you'll like it after that...and if you dont, at least u get to know that u dont like it.
And from there, u'll know what u really really want....
but of coz, after goin through all the hassle, u'll probably think twice... whether u should go for it or not... and whether it's all worth it.
Ah, whatever.
U go figure it....

Reminiscing the days WHERE life is so easy to live.

i'm back!

2008-10-26T07:55:00.008+08:00

Erm..sudah agak lama tak update blog... (Agak lama? 5 bulan
kot?~)

Mula mengemas2 sambil meniup2 habuk2
yg melekat2 dan berterbangan tatkala menekan button "Sign in" tadi.

Otak masih berfikir, nk update ape kah?

Sudah lama tak menggunakan otak kanan untuk menulis dan
meluahkan segala yg terbuku di hati dan minda.

Terasa blog ini agak kusam. Memerlukan sedikit perubahan...

The blog needs more colour ....like C.O.L.O.U.R s hey... tuka gamba
atas tu lah...

Not sure if people do read my blog or not, it doesn't matter to me.

I used to write everything i want here. Everything i like, everything i
see...

I remembered those good old days during uni life, blog was the best place to share things with my frens (rabbit especially) Nope...i dont wanna talk about the past anymore....

Somehow, i lost all the passion to write, sometimes i felt that my life has been a bit dry and monotonous...sounds pretty boring...i know.

(a few minutes of silence...lama gak)

Ok... tuka mode.

Mungkin kena tambah sedikit perencah rasa masam masin dalam kehidupan aku
kan... Barulah hidup penuh warna-warni...

Walaupun kadang2 mendung,kadang2 hujan, kadang2 panas, kadang2 ade
rainbow...
Tapi lebih baik daripada takade langsung kan....

So people..... beware because I'm back!

(Hanya hiasan semata: Gambar menggapai langit... sangat suka! )
Baiklah,
Masih sempat lagi nak wish.
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

2008-05-13T22:57:00.006+08:00

Currently Listening to: Stop and Stare ~ OneRepublic

Recently, i was away to Phnom Penh in Cambodia, for some work
commitment of course.

Its good to be away from the normal work routine.
Breathing a new kind of air, looking at the different kind of people, the trip
was relaxing as well.

But the best part is, the feeling of grateful to Allah. Comparing M'sia and Cambodia, too much different. Cambodia was like us in the 60s-70s. Although, i was'nt even born yet, but i can imagine it, plus Pok Him also said the same thing.

They live a very simple life and yet they look so happy. Another country where i could'nt bare the traffic jammed. It's worst than KL, except that i think they are more civilized on the road rather than M'sian drivers.

I was amazed to see that apart of Tuk-tuk (some kind of Cab/taxi there) as the public transportation, they also have motorbike as a taxi, where they carried 3 passengers at a time (which means 4 people on a motorbike!) It seems that the seat were a bit longer than usual. I find it interesting and amusing....hehe...

Majority of them speaks English really well that i dont think we have any prob especially when doing SOME shopping and bargaining at the Central Market. Quite an interesting place to find souvenirs and also clothes (and also women accessories ie jewelleries with all the batu2 kaler2 yg lawa sgt!! ) I can stay there forever admiring
all those things.

I also found out that their teenagers are so into studies so much. They are highly spirited and very ambitious. When asked what would they do if they become the Prime Minister, most of them said that they want to develop their country to be at par with other developed country neighbours which includes ours. They went for English classes, trying out for every kind of scholarship..... they are so bersemangat! and very mature for their age. Their views are also different from our youngsters here.

Overall, i really enjoyed the trip so much. Unfortunately, due to limited time to go for sight seeing, i only managed to snap pictures from inside the car. And i have to forget about getting into the pictures as i am now are in so very serious skin damage. I dun wanna talk about it much. So most of the pictures are landscapes and buildings. They do have a very nice architecture of building especially the French's design from years ago. To see bigger and clearer pictures, go and see my flickrs.

One historical place where we were able to visit was the TOUL SLENG Museum of
Genocidal Crime. It was actually a school but was used during the Khmer Rouge
regime as a torture facility. The place is a bit scary and full of pictures of
the victims. If i have spare time, I'll put up some pics from there....

All i can say here is that.... I really enjoy it.... very much!

So, where to for the next trip? :p

2008-01-01T06:44:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year!

Kicking start the brand new 2008 with fresh and funky new look for my room.
Ok, not exactly new, but i've actually spent my holidays painting my bedroom with colours of grapes and sakura. How kewl is that? :p

From gloomy blue walls to fresh green grape and sakura red walls really turned the room to a much more alive and kicking sensation! There's nothin much that i can do to my room actually, just have to used what ever was there, only changed a bit here and there. Not really a major make-over... but still, i'm loving it. And not to mention, the end of year spring cleaning. I just hope it will last longer than before....

A few trips to Ikea was great and inspiring. Loved all their modern contemporary looks and designs. If only i could grab all those things without having to worried bout my pocket. But in the end, i knew, i dont really need it.... perhaps someday when i have a place i called My Home...

Lately, I realized that I've been a bit grumpy, cant help it. Sorry!

But i'm trying to control it. Even after discovering that i hate conflicts in life, in which I realized more conflicts arise, i'll go berserk. Tht's where the grumpiness starts coming. Which means, i really have to stay away from it.

This year, I'm gonna change ' everything '.

Now, I go for mine.
I gotta shine.
Now throw your hands up in the sky!

XoXo,
FaZz

2007-12-21T06:47:00.000+08:00

I was awakened by sounds of water dripping frm the ceiling in to the bucket, it's still early.... now i felt dizzy...

I should feel good now since i'm actually on leave from the office until next year. However, knowing that I have a lot of work piling up, I dont feel good to start my leave. And now is the best time to do the works before BB comes back from her holidays. This is the only time I can do my work peacefully.... no interuptions or ad-hoc work...

I browsed tru my old entries in my beloved blog.... wow, it's been 4 years that I've been blogging. But recent few months, I've been keeping quiet as I was'nt keen to blog eventho a lot had happened.

The old entries reminds me of my Good old days which i missed so so much..... and i can see how growned up i'm now comparing to my earlier blogging days. But those days was full of excitement, while now was all routined.... I dont know why, but i wish to have some magic in my life now.... so that i wont feel bored or lost. I'm probably still searching..... dunno what...

I just realize one thing tht i'm still in love with..... travelling....

If i ever have a chance to go somewhere that i have'nt been yet, i'll make sure i'll bring my superb dgcam with me, capturing the moment and things that i see thru my eyes. The more you see around, the more you learn abt people and life.... but still, the best camera ever are actually both your eyes, praise Allah for that!~

My latest Overseas assignment for the year, was a trip to Jakarta. As usual, a last minute appointment never make me feel bad as i was accompanied by great people who really knows where to go to shop and eat at Jakarta.... despite the assignment, we also went shopping!!~ I think that was the best part ever, we went to Bandung. Eventho only for a day, the trip was filled with great shopping places. Jakarta was not a place for 'us' to shop. The malls are big and everyhere, with a lot of branded designer names, but locals do not shop there. Preferably go to a lil bit suburb places like Bandung and shop at their big factory outlets. There they have wide ranges of clothes and other stuff which you will definitely like it and worth the money! I even got myself a black 'Baby Phat' jacket which i love so much worth ard RM 40 jer!!~

How i see Jakarta, actually more like KL. Full of people and traffic jams which was actually worst than KL. Before this I thought traffic jams in Malaysia was terrible enuff, but nothing compared to Jakarta.... oh, what a headache...

Another season for Travelling was at Kuching.... Yea, my first time, honourably appointed last minute to join the Kuching Team for our Educamp at Sarawak. But again, teamed up with great team members,we managed to handle the event smoothly. Personally for me, it was really fun. We enjoyed every single minute of working together. Plus the stroll along Sungai Sarawak at night hunting for 'gelang' was exciting too! Hahah....

My wishlist:

I wanna go to a place with blue blue sky! I need it so much!~

2007-07-31T21:13:00.000+08:00

Another reunion with my fellow primary skoolmates at the Eye on Malaysia. It's Tahun Melawat Malaysia now... better go and grab some nice pics there. It was raining that day, so the pics wasn't so great...but i still like it. I wanna do this more often!

2007-05-17T20:04:00.000+08:00

How long have I been working now at KLCC?
FYI, it's already a year and 2 mths.
But I never actually walk and stroll along the KLCC Park down there.
I really really wanted to do that actually, because I wanna take pictures of the twin tower at night. But never had a chance to do that tho.

So, since Salwa was around, we planned a gathering near the KLCC Park. Mas brought with her sate kajang!~

Aaaahh... I really miss this kinda gathering, like wut we used to do at brissy before.
So, I cannot missed this opportunity to snap this photos with the background of the twin tower!

And also, it was quite awhile, we have'nt had a chance to gather around like this anymore.

Lets do this more often, girls!!!~

2007-05-15T00:40:00.000+08:00

Enjoying the piccas?

The truth is, i just came back from a business trip to Sudan last Tuesday.
Yes, S.U.D.A.N, sudan.
Where is Sudan anyway? It's in the Northern Africa, near Egypt and Ethiopia.
For what?
To select some local students there to continue their studies at our university here.

It was my FIRST time there, obviously. My first overseas work outstation. But actually, it was a pretty last minute instruction from big bos. Imagined that we only know that we are going there on Monday, whilst the flight was on Thursday. And also have to get 5 jap for vaccination, ouch! Thank God, I've got my passport all ready to use...

However, it was a great experience and and quite an exciting trip for us!

Ok, the pics above was taken while I was in Dubai for flight transit to Sudan. Was in Dubai for about 7 hours after 6 hours flight from KL. But, we have'nt got the time to go around the city though, since we arrived a bit early in the morning at the transit hotel, while the city only open at 10 am, and we have to rush back to the airport at 12 noon. However, me n my colleague managed to snaps some pics all around the hotel....huhuh... Dubai was really hot and dry. There are lots of Asian people working there, and i cant barely recognized who were the original people there... Quite confusing... What I can say is that, they all look rich and modern. A bit too westernized indeed.

Flight to Sudan from Dubai only took around 4 hrs, i was quite carried away with all meals they served onboard. Nice food and nice people from Emirates Air. But somehow, during the touch down, I felt a bit dizzy and almost feel like throwing out. I guessed it was the cheese cake. So I was'nt really look alright then, and the weather was really dry and flaming hot! I really dont dare to open up my mouth, coz i'm afraid that i'll vomit. The staff from Sudan office was there to pick us up, they help us go through the immigration faster than we should. First time experience in a 3rd world country, i felt so grateful to Allah with what we have in Malaysia. The life here in Sudan was so simple. Not hectic at all, they only live with what they have around.

And so we have to work on Friday and Saturday, since the event can only be done during their weekends just to get everyone to be involved in it. The event was so simple, as wut i said before. Nothing to compare with the ones that we always held in Tronoh. Well, at first I was quite frustrated with it. But sooner, I just realized that, that was how it was supposed to be. An event does not have to be that grand to be successful. Which means, as long as the event achieved the target (eg: select best students for sponsorship), then it was succesful enough. Its not the way you do it, but its more on the result that you get. Ok...I rest my case there. Probably the culture there is different. They are still developing, and still learning... But I really hope that everything will turn differently another 10 years. Erm, just my 2 cents.

Finally, everything turns out well and our job was done right on time!

So, departed from Sudan Airport on Sunday evening, had a transit at Bahrain. Thats the only time that we have to shop for some souvenirs for friends and family. And later at midnight, board the flight back to KL.

Reached KLIA AT about 12:30 noon Monday. And I am so glad to be back in KL and back to the modernisation nation!!!!!~

On top of this all, it was a great trip and I have no regrets on going there.

2007-03-15T11:05:00.000+08:00

I really need to burst this thing out. I'm sick of arranging schedule for this BIG2 people when they themselves could'nt actually arrange it themselves. Owh what, do you think that when u're up there means that, those down below have to do everything for you? Like every little tiny things? Come on, you cant just expect things to be perfect all the time. You've been in the organization for so long, you should be more experienced and you should know how to handle things far much better than those with less experience. I mean all this are small matters.

Takkan la sampai airport pun nk kena org jemput, ok fine, mmg akan dijemput la. But nk balik ke airport pun, u can actually grab a cab and they obviously will sent you there. So what's the fuss anyway?? Are you saying that u dunno how to get there? dunno how to call the cab?

I really thought people like you are more exposed to places like that, travelling all over the world. You should know every single step already. Do you expect us whom never been there to know all this? Nope kan. But yet, we will still assist. Takkan la semua nk orang arrange kan. Ok, people can always arrange for you, but you are the one who will be at that place doing evrything , not the person yg arrangekan. Can you imagine how hard for us to actually think of all situation or worst scenarios that could happen just to let you have a perfect safe and sound trip. And then, when something came up, you would just gonna blame us for our bad arrangement.

FYI, i'm sick ok..so sick...sickening....

Please laa.... planning for my backpacking trip was wayyyy easier than this!

2007-02-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

She tagged me...

She made me tell everyone the 6 strange things bout myself...
She refused to say that it's weird...me too... I dont think, strange or weird is the word...
I'd prefer, unique...eheh..
Its hard....seriously hard....
But, I'll try...

So here are the 6 Unique things about me! I need a very long time to do this!

#1 - I hate being under the limelight!
- I'm a very very shy girl! Too much attention is no good for me. Try putting lots of attention to me, and you'll find all the task given to me undone. I cant take too much pressure , I guess.

#2 - Eventho I love to be in a photo, i prefer not to look directly into the camera.
-Easier for me to edit the photo. I felt embarrased looking at myself smiling in the photo itself! Gambar yg unik tidak memerlukan anda melihat ke kamera, itu prinsip saya!

#3 - I'm more into western/italian food
-I always think that nasik is menggemukkan.... jahat! jahat! but sometimes i have to eat it jugak!
I'd prefer simple food cam burger and pizza.... aha, simple ke tu?

#4 - I do not drink tea and coffee
-Entah, dunno why i dont feel like drink it at all....and milk too... will get stomach ache after drinking it! Lagipun, too much tea and coffee bleh menguningkan gigi, betul!!

# 5 - Easily dozed off after dinner.
-The bed is the forbidden place for me after eating activities. And also while watching (dull) movies. So, please do not eat too much! No wonder la gem*ks!

#6 - I read too much novels!
-Admires people who can write novels! I wish i can too. While reading the novels, i'll made my own film adaptation in my mind! I even chose the actor/actress to play the characters in the novels. Cam direktor filem plak!

See...its hard describing the uniqueness within myself. I'm sure there are lots more actually...
need more time to list it all down...

erm..if you think it's not that unique at all... i dont mind, after all, i'm only describing myself from my own view. Different people, perceive different things, and that makes you unique amongst others! No one in the world is the same. Cap jari pun lain2 perr....

And now, i think i need to tag others:
tapi siapakah...?
1-salwa
2-rabbit
3-leen
4-najwa
5-hainey

Please do whenever you feel free k!!

2007-01-03T08:09:00.000+08:00

Hope it is still not too late to wish y'all that!

New Year Resolution
CHANGE
To be better than yesterday.

It's easy to say, but it's hard to walk the talk .
Well, everything need to have a starting point.
Start now, or never ....

2006-12-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

I love it when it comes to holiday. Weekend is the most awaited things of all days! Unfortunately, that was what i'm lacking for quite some time. If only weekends could be rewind and replay, that would be really good...

Ok, i know i'm babbling about weekend when it is actually weekdays, and i know some of you are currently working during the day. But please understand, my feeling of not having to work for a few days....it feels so nice and freeeee!!!! Eventho, i know a lot of work is still pending, but, hey, work never ends....so just buat dunno je laa...

I know that i've been working quite hard lately, no weekends for consecutively almost a month and i realised that i still have about 8 days to finish up my leaves up till the end of the year. Lately, i've been thinking that how i missed the time to hang out with friends, family and also to hangout in my own room. Felt like a robot with no life.... well, i probly did'nt really know how to manage my working life/social life till now.... I need a break from all the stressed and pressure at workplace...huih, i sounded so bad huh? But seriously, i dont really have the time for my own.... But i do hope what i've done will be appreciated and i do learned something after all.

Anyway, since Christmas day falls on Monday, i took this opportunity to planned my leaves and went for a holiday with the rest of the family to Bukit Tinggi last weekend! Will be back in the office on Thursday, Insya Allah. So, below are some of kewl selected piccas to share...

Next agenda:

New Year - I have a lot in mind. Thinking of a New Year Resolution is giving me a headache. It's like doing your IPC. Of course when i make a resolution, i would want it to be accomplished. So, will think of one that is more realistic and achievable....

2006-12-19T01:27:00.000+08:00

I'm so happy for both of you.

2006-11-28T18:02:00.000+08:00

Pengajaran melalui permainan

KENYATAAN HIDUP DISEBALIK PERMAINAN INI.

Seorang guru wanita sedang bersemangat mengajarkan sesuatu kepada
murid-muridnya. Ia duduk menghadap murid-muridnya. Di tangan kirinya
ada kapur, di tangan kanannya ada pemadam. Guru itu berkata, "Saya ada
satu permainan... Caranya begini, ditangan kiri saya ada kapur, di tangan
kanan ada pemadam. Jika saya angkat kapur ini, maka berserulah "Kapur!",
jika saya angkat pemadam ini, maka katalah "Pemadam!"

Murid muridnya pun mengerti dan mengikuti. Guru berganti-gantian
mengangkat antara kanan dan kiri tangannya, semakin lama semakin cepat. Beberapa
saat kemudian guru kembali berkata, "Baik sekarang perhatikan. Jika saya
angkat kapur, maka sebutlah "Pemadam!", jika saya angkat pemadam, maka
katakanlah "Kapur!". Dan diulangkan seperti tadi, tentu saja murid-murid tadi
keliru dan kekok, dan sangat sukar untuk mengubahnya. Namun lambat laun,
mereka sudah biasa dan tidak lagi kekok. Selang beberapa saat, permainan
berhenti.

Sang guru tersenyum kepada murid-muridnya. "Murid-murid, begitulah
kita umat Islam. Mulanya yang haq itu haq, yang bathil itu bathil. Kita
begitu jelas membezakannya. Namun kemudian, musuh musuh kita memaksakan
kepada kita dengan perbagai cara, untuk menukarkan sesuatu, dari yang haq
menjadi bathil, dan sebaliknya. Pertama-tama mungkin akan sukar bagi kita
menerima hal tersebut, tapi kerana terus disosialisasikan dengan cara-cara
menarik oleh mereka, akhirnya lambat laun kamu akan terbiasa dengan hal itu.
Dan anda mulai dapat mengikutinya. Musuh-musuh kamu tidak pernah berhenti
membalik dan menukar nilai dan ketika.

"Keluar berduaan, berkasih-kasihan tidak lagi sesuatu yang pelik, Zina
tidak lagi jadi persoalan, pakaian seksi menjadi hal yang lumrah,
tanpa rasa malu, sex sebelum nikah menjadi suatu kebiasaan dan trend,
hiburan yang asyik dan panjang sehingga melupakan yang wajib adalah biasa,
materialistik kini menjadi suatu gayahidup dan lain lain." "Semuanya
sudah terbalik. Dan tanpa disedari, anda sedikit demi sedikit menerimanya
tanpa rasa ia satu kesalahan dan kemaksiatan. Paham?" tanya Guru kepada
murid-muridnya. "Paham cikgu..."

"Baik permainan kedua..." begitu Guru melanjutkan.
"Cikgu ada Qur'an,cikgu akan letakkannya di tengah karpet. Sekarang
anda berdiri diluar karpet. Permainannya adalah, bagaimana caranya
mengambil Qur'an yang ada ditengah tanpa memijak karpet?"

Murid-muridnya berpikir . Adayang mencuba alternatif dengan
tongkat,dan lain-lain.
Akhirnya Guru memberikan jalan keluar, digulungnya karpet, dan ia
ambil Qur'an. Ia memenuhi syarat, tidak memijak karpet."Murid-murid,
begitulah ummat Islam dan musuh-musuhnya...Musuh-musuh Islam tidak akan
memijak-mijak anda dengan terang-terang...Kerana tentu anda akan menolaknya mentah
mentah. Orang biasapun tak akan rela kalau Islam dihina dihadapan
mereka. Tapi mereka akan menggulung anda perlahan-lahan dari pinggir, sehingga
anda tidak sadar.

"Jika seseorang ingin membuat rumah yang kuat, maka dibina tapak yang
kuat. Begitulah Islam, jika ingin kuat, maka bangunlah aqidah yang kuat.
Sebaliknya, jika ingin membongkar rumah, tentu susah kalau dimulai dgn
tapaknya dulu, tentu saja hiasan-hiasan dinding akan dikeluarkan dulu,
kerusi dipindahkan dulu, Almari dibuang dulu satu persatu, baru rumah
dihancurkan..."

"Begitulah musuh-musuh Islam menghancurkan kita. Ia tidak akan
menghentam terang-terangan, tapi ia akan perlahan-lahan meletihkan anda. Mulai
dari perangai anda, cara hidup, pakaian dan lain-lain, sehingga meskipun
anda muslim, tapi anda telah meninggalkan ajaran Islam dan mengikuti cara
yang mereka... Dan itulah yang mereka inginkan." "Ini semua adalah fenomena
Ghazwul Fikri (Perang Pemikiran). Dan inilah yang dijalankan oleh
musuh musuh kita... "

"Kenapa mereka tidak berani terang-terang memijak-mijak cikgu?" tanya
murid- murid.
"Sesungguhnya dahulu mereka terang-terang menyerang, misalnya Perang
Salib, Perang Tartar, dan lain-lain. Tapi sekarang tidak lagi." "Begitulah
Islam... Kalau diserang perlahan-lahan, mereka tidak akan sedar,
akhirnya hancur. Tapi kalau diserang serentak terang-terangan, mereka
akan bangkit serentak, baru mereka akan sadar".

"Kalau begitu, kita selesaikan pelajaran kita kali ini, dan mari kita
berdoa dahulu sebelum pulang..." Matahari bersinar terik takala
anak-anak itu keluar meninggalkan tempat belajar mereka dengan pikiran
masing-masing di kepalanya...

2006-11-25T16:22:00.000+08:00

I wonder why some people always want to look bad at others.
Why do you really wanna critic them? You dont even know them at all.
Does'nt mean that they are not behaving like you, they are bad and all.
And do you really think that you are perfect enough, by saying that?

Being introvert is not wrong, and being extrovert is not bad either.
You behave depend on the situation.
If you think doing that is good for you, then do it, but dont criticize others who are not doing it. Coz for them, they might find it inappropriate.

The way you are saying is like, everyone should be doing it and that's the reason they failed.
Wow, as if you are that successful now with what you did before...

Tak semestinyer..... dont look down to people...
And what is so great of them that you really proud of? Just because you talk English fluently, do you really think that they cannot? They just dont have the chance or probly not confident enough like you. You should be thankful to God that you are given that skills, and perhaps you can help them with your skills, not by saying they are timid or wutsoever....

Please laaa.... dont let this kind of people come near me.... i dont like!!!!

Just remember one thing, what you have right now wont stay with you forever, mati nanti hilang jugak nnt!

* I'm just letting out what i feel for them.... this is so not fair .... sighh....

2006-11-23T12:57:00.000+08:00

diambil drpd emel fwd...

Andainya Malaysia diserang

andromed menulis "MALAYSIA DISERANG ???
AMARIKOS menyatakan Malaysia sarang pengganas..
ada pejuang Hizbullah terlepas ke malaysia...lalu menghantar Kapal Pengangkut Pesawatnya (CARRIER) di Selat Melaka dan di Laut China Selatan. Menghantar kapal selam nuklearnya dgn muatan peluru berpandu membawa armada tentera untuk menyerang malaysia...

AMARIKOS menyuruh negara berhampiran dengan Malaysia yang merupakan sekutu rapatnya SINGOFURO di selatan, TAHAILAND di Utara dan PILLIPINNOS di Timur menenyerang Malaysia dengan alasan memburu pengganas al-Qaeda atau Hizbullah sama seperti alasan Israel menyerang Lubnan.

Walaupun Malaysia cakap Malaysia negara bebas pengganas tentera Kuffar tetap menyerang malaysia jugak sama seperti mereka menyerang Iraq kerana mereka dakwa Iraq ada senjata pemusnah, Afghanistan ada Pengganas Taliban, Lubnan ada Pengganas Hibullah dan Malaysia ada Pengganas Jemaah Islamiah.

Malaysia tetap mempertahankan Malaysia ini tidak ada pengganas tetapi suara kita tidak dihiraukan sama seperti mereka tidak hiraukan Afghanistan, Iraq dan Lubnan.
Sebelum tiba saat MALAYSIA DISERANG ini Perdana Menteri kita...YB Wakil Rakyat...Parlimen dan ADUN...Tauke-tauke Cina yang kaya... semua cabut lari ke keluar negara dengan jet dan pesawat peribadi masing-masing. Mereka ada duit untuk cari perlindungan di luar negara.

Tinggallah rakyat Melayu Islam yang miskin hina ini di negara sendiri, menunggu masa untuk diserang oleh tentera Kuffar AMARIKOS dan sekutunya. Barulah rakyat tahu bahawa pemimpin Melayu dan tauke cina yang dijadikan pepimpin sebelum ini tidak sama seperti Khalifah Umar Al-Khattab...Khalifah Ali Abi Thalib...Khalifah Khalid Al-Walid... Khalifah Salahuddin Al-Ayubbi...yang sanggup berada dibarisan hadapan berdepan musuh-musuh Islam.
SAAT Peperangan bermula....

Tempat yang mula-mula sekali dibom adalah Putrajaya, diikuti negeri-negeri lain. AMARIKOS dan Sekutunya mengebom...melancar peluru berpandu... membedil...menembak Rakyat Malaysia...mereka membunuh Orang tua... perempuan dan Anak-anak kecil orang melayu islam kita...sama seperti Yahudi menembak dan membunuh rakyat Lubnan yang tak berdosa!!!
AMARIKOS dan sekutunya menyerang MALAYSIA secara besar-besaran. Apabila selesai pesawat pejuang di Selat Melaka mengebom Perlis, Kedah, Pulau Pinang, Perak, Selangor dan Kuala Lumpur. Datang lagi pesawat musuh silih berganti.....

Apabila selesai pesawat pejuang di laut China Selatan mengebom Kelantan, Terengganu, Pahang....datang lagi pesawat musuh silih berganti....

Johor pula dibedil dengan peluru berpandu jarak sederhana SINGOFURO... diserang dengan jet-jet pejuang SINGOFURO yang sentiasa melalui ruang udaranya... menghujani bom-bom dan roket...kemudian Johor dan negeri sembilan dapat ditawan tentera musuh.
Anda di berada di Kedah....Pasukan Darat tentera Bersekutu mara dari bahagian Utara...tentera bersekutu semakin dekat dengan rumah anda... menentang pintu rumah anda....anda bersama dengan Isteri yang sarat mengandung dan 3 orang anak ketakutan dalam rumah...

Tentera bersekutu memperkosa anak perempuan yang berusia 12 tahun anda depan mata anda...sebagaimana tentera Sebia memperkosa umat Islam Bosnia...muncung senapang ditujukan di kepala anda...

Anak perempuan kesayangan anda yang anda bawak masa jamuan Raya 2006...diajukan muncung senapang...
DAMMMMMM...anak kesayangan anda mati ditembak oleh tentera bersekutu...

Sebelum ini anda melihat anak umat islam Lubnan, Palestin mati ditembak.. anda tidak mempunyai perasaan apa-apa... sekarang berlaku kepada diri sendiri... baru tahu perasaan sedih anak mati ditembak di depan mata.....
Anda menangis ketakutan....

Tentera bersekutu merampas Isteri anda yang sarat mengandung, dibawa menaiki trak...untuk dijadikan habuan tentera dalam kem. Anda dipukul separuh mati oleh tentera bersekutu meninggalkan anda patah riuk berlumuran darah. Anda sangka anda sudah mati....tetapi umur anda masih panjang....anda masih hidup...anda merangkak menuju ke hutan berhampiran disebuah bukit untuk menyembunyikan diri....

Anda mengalirkan air mata... INGAT AKAN ALLAH....

Ujian peperangan berlaku didepan mata anda sekarang. Anda sebelum ini tidak pernah terlintas dengan peperangan. Kita sering disogokkan negara kita aman, tiada peperangan, tiada pertumpahan darah tiba-tiba hari ini diuji berlaku peperangan.

Pemimpin tersebut yang menyatakan negara kita aman cabut menghilangkan diri. Anda sudah tiada siapa lagi didunia ini....
Anak perempuan diperkosa dan dibunuh didepan mata...
Anak kecil ditembak didepan mata...
Isteri dirampas untuk diperkosa.... didepan mata!!!!
kawan-kawan...sahabat taulan... ramai yang terkorban..
dan tidak kurang juga yang cedera parahh..

Dipuncak bukit anda melihat kampung halaman anda terbakar. Mayat orang melayu Islam bergelimpangan mati terutama golongan orang tua dan kanak-kanak yang tidak sempat melarikan diri...mereka tidak bernasib baik seperti anda...

Diatas bukit itu juga...anda melihat beribu-ribu Tentera bersekutu berkumpul untuk membunuh dan menembak saki-baki orang melayu Islam yang masih selamat...mengerledah setiap ruang yang ada untuk memburu Al-Qaeda, Hizbullah atau Jemaah Islamiah...tetapi umat Islam lain yang jadi mangsa...

Sementara menunggu sakaratul maut menjemput anda apabila anda tersua dengan Tentera bersekutu nanti....

Apa yang anda Harapkan pada masa itu????

Tiada perkara lain yang anda harapkan kecuali...BANTUAN ALLAH....
BANTUAN TENTERA UNTUK MEMBELA AGAMA ALLAH...ANDA MENGHARAPKAN UMAT ISLAM DARI NEGARA LAIN MEMBERI BANTUAN KETENTERAAN KEPADA MALAYSIA... ANDA MENGHARAPKAN SAUDARA SEAGAMA DENGAN ANDA MELINDUNGI ANDA DARIPADA SERANGAN TENTERA KUFFAR!!!! ANDA MENGHARAPKAN BANTUAN TENTERA JIHAD FI SABILILLAH DARIPADA INDONESIA,SELATAN THAILAND, BANGLADESH, PAKISTAN,DAN NEGARA OIC YANG LAINNNNNN.....BAGI MELAWAN TENTERA PENCEROBOH BUMI MALAYSIA INI......
Tetapi tunggu punya tunggu....bantuan ketenteraan tidak kunjung tiba...

ANDA TERDENGAR UCAPAN DARIPADA PEMIMPIN DUNIA ISLAM YANGLAIN
menyatakan:
"Kami Negara-Negara Islam Mengutuk tentera PENCEROBOH menyerang Malaysia" (Presiden Burkina Faso, Pengerusi OIC yang baru)

"Kami akan menghantar 10 000 Tentera pengaman ke MALAYSIA selepas tamat perang nanti...setelah habis kawasan Malaysia dibom oleh tentera bersekutu"(Presiden NAM)

"Alhamdulillah... Negara kita Indonesia aman damai berbanding dengan
negara Malaysia yang dilanda peperangan...Kita semua patut bersyukur...
kita dapat menyambut hari raya aidilfitri dan deepavali dalam suasana
yang aman harmoni" <--- Pemimpin Malaysia selalu sebut.
(Presiden Indonesia- Negara Umat Islam paling ramai)

"Tak apa... selepas peperangan tamat... Kami akan menghantar para pendakwah ke Malaysia untuk mendidik rakyat Malaysia"
(Wakil Penduduk Islam Selatan Thailand)

"Kami akan menghantar bekalan makanan dan ubatan kepada Penduduk Islam Malaysia yang dilanda peperangan"
(Pemimpin Arab Saudi)..bagi komen dan pendapat...

APA PERASAAN ANDA APABILA MENDENGAR UCAPAN PEMIMPIN-PEMIMPIN ISLAM SEPERTI DIATAS DIKALA ANDA MEMERLUKAN BANTUAN
KETENTERAAN DARIPADA MEREKA??
fikir2 kan....

Ooucch...

2006-11-14T09:47:00.000+08:00

Once there was a man who asked ALLAH for a flower and a butterfly

But Instead Allah gave him a cactus and a catterpillar
The man was sad, he didn't understand why his request was mistaken.

Then he thought:
Oh well, Allah has too many people to care for...
And decided not to question.

After some time, the man went to check up on his request that he had left forgotten.
To his surprise, from the thorny & ugly cactus a beautiful flower had grown.
And the unsightly carterpillar had been transformed into the most beautiful butterfly.

ALLAH always does things right!
His way is ALWAYS the best way,
even if to us it seems all wrong.

If you asked ALLAH for one thing & received another, TRUST.
You can be sure that He will always give you what you need at the appropriate time.

What you want...
....is not always what you need!

ALLAH never fails to grant our petitions, so keep on going for Him without doubting or murmuring.

Today's THORN...
Is tomorrow's FLOWER!

ALLAH GIVES THE VERY BEST TO THOSE WHO LEAVE THE CHOICES UP TO HIM!

2006-10-28T20:40:00.000+08:00

You say it best, when you say nothing at all ....

especially when the photos itselfs speaks a thousand words...

2006-10-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

2006-10-22T00:58:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir Batin!!~

Raya ni tak sempat pulak nk design satu kad raya. Terpaksa kluarkan balik yg dulu2 nyer. Yg pastinyer banyak menyimpan kenangan lama yg manis n pahit. Tapi yg manis lebih diingati.

Ehe...raya thn ni kena bg duit raya ker kat kezen2ku? Pertama kali beraya sbg seorg yg dh bekerja....well, there's always a first time for everything...pasni lain plak... kan...:p

Kepala pening, br lps packing dan lepas sahur satgi akan bertolak pegi amik tokwan kat tanjung malim pastu amik achik plak kat tronoh....pastu br lah ke destinasi kampungku Kulim. It's gonna be a very longgggg trip tmrw....

Semoga raya tahun ini tetap meriah walaupun ape sahaja dugaan yg mendatang....

Raya tetap raya!!!!!

2006-10-03T14:13:00.000+08:00

Why do we read Quran, even we can't understand not even a single Arabic?

This is a beautiful story.

An old American Muslim lived on a farm in the mountains of eastern Kentucky with his young grandson. Each morning Grandpa was up early sitting at the kitchen table reading his Qur'an.

His grandson wanted to be just like him and tried to imitate him in every way he could.

One day the grandson asked, "Grandpa, I try to read the Qur'an just like you but I don't understand it, and what I do understand I forget as soon as I close the book.
What good does reading the Qur'an do?"

The Grandfather quietly turned from putting coal in the stove and replied, "Take this coal basket down to the river and bring me back a basket of water."

The boy did as he was told, but all the water leaked out before he got back to the house.

The grandfather laughed and said, "You'll have to move a little faster next time," and sent him back to the river with the basket to try again.

This time the boy ran faster, but again the basket was empty before he returned home.

Out of breath, he told his grandfather that it was impossible to carry water in a basket, and he went to get a bucket instead.

The old man said, "I don't want a bucket of water; I want a basket of water.

You're just not trying hard enough," and he went out the door to watch the boy try again.

At this point, the boy knew it was impossible, but he wanted to show his grandfather that even if he ran as fast as he could, the water would leak out before he got back to the house.

The boy again dipped the basket into river and ran hard, but when he reached his grandfather the basket was again empty.

Out of breath, he said, "See Grandpa, it's useless!"

"So you think it is useless?" The old man said, "Look at the basket."

The boy looked at the basket and for the first time realized that the basket was different. It had been transformed from a dirty old coal basket and was now clean, inside and out.

"Son, that's what happens when you read the Qur'an.
You might not understand or remember everything, but when you read it, you will be changed, inside and out. That is the work of Allah in our lives."

2006-09-22T09:26:00.000+08:00

Thought for the day.

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university lecturer. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life. Offering his guests coffee, the lecturer went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups: porcelain, plastic, glass, some plain-looking and some expensive and exquisite, telling them to help themselves to hot coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the lecturer said: "If you noticed, all the nice- looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is but normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the better cups and are eyeing each other's cups."

"Now, if life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain life, but the quality of life doesn't change."

"Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee in it."

Don't let the cups drives you... enjoy the coffee.

2006-09-20T10:05:00.000+08:00

This morning is so dull actually.
I looked around me, nobody's in the office except a few. Some of them attending training, some of them MC, some of them overseas, even the bosses is not around.

I'm bored, so here i am writing something and cleaning up sawang2 here in my beloved blog. Eventho i know i'm due to do yesterday's minutes of meeting.

Just to share my first experience in one comittee meeting yesterday. I am the secretary for the meeting, yupp...which as usual i will always prefer doing the writing than do the talking. But yesterday's was so tensed where the madam chairwoman was a really tough one!

The decision done will always be NO, and FYI , she is tougher than the previous chairman which is now transfered to overseas. Anyway, i never really met him pun, just heard it from my boss.
The meeting lasts about 3 hrs, than what we scheduled which was supposed to be only 2 hrs. Penat sehhh take minutes, and at the same time i'm trying to digest what are they really are discussing about... taking over someone's job is so not good, people just dont understand that you know nothing at all...but i'm trying to take a grip on that. You can always learn.

Anyway, I'm due to confirm after 6 months on probation. From what me and my superior had discussed, i am recommended though. My department now are understaff. That explains why you cant really see many people in the office, some of the cubicles are empty. A new staff had just reported yesterday. Fresh graduate too, my boss said that our department is coming back to square one like 4 years ago. All the seniors execs moving out, here come the fresh young ones. Even the SM and a few managers moving out too...

Ramadhan's coming soon!
Am waiting for it, since it,s been 4 years i missed having ramadhan in Malaysia.
But i'm sure gonna miss my ramadhan in brissy especially last year's.
I can still remember how i struggled between my project and then tarawikh and then back to lab...but surprisingly i managed everything!
Those were the days.....which if i have the chance, i would like to go back.

Somehow, i miss the old "me".... i'm probably changed now....but still i wish i can be like before...

"Kamu tau nggak?"
"Sesuatu yg mahal itu apa?"
"Detik yg telah dilewati, kita nggak pernah bisa membeli masa itu kembali"

-OST Alexandria

2006-09-20T08:14:00.000+08:00

Salam to all,
Since Ramadhan is getting nearer to us, which i'm sure everyone just cant wait for it,
I would love to share with everyone something about Ramadhan from an email that i get from a friend:

RAMADHAN AL MUBARAK TO ALL MY FRENS !

Wishing all Muslim friends - selamat berpuasa..
Ramadhan hampir menjelang dan persiapan hendaklah diadakan dengan memahami cara beramal di bulan Ramadhan mengikut sunnah dan jangan menjalani ibadah Ramadhan mengikut adat kerana Rasullah pernah bersabda didalam hadisnya :

"Barang siapa menghidupkan sunnahKu ketika rosak umat-Ku maka baginya mendapat pahala seratus syahid. "

Oleh itu berhati-hatilah melakukan amal supaya mempunyai nilai yang tinggi dan mendapat kesan yang baik disepanjang bulan Ramadhan dan dibawah ini dicatatkan amalan-amalan mengikut sunnah.

CHECK LIST AMALAN DI BULAN RAMADHAN
1. Mengucapkan tahniah (Selamat datang Ramadhan atau Selamat menyambut Ramadhan).
2. Niat sebulan bagi malam yang pertama dan selanjutnya niat untuk hari-hari.
3. Sembahyang Isyak berjamaah di masjid/surau.
4. Solat Tarawikh 20 rakaat.
5. Tadarus membaca bersemak dan berturut-turut juzuk.
6. Tidur malam membaca 4 ayat terakhir Surah Al Kahfi supaya dikejutkan bangun tepat jam 4.00 pagi.
7. Bangun jam 4.00 pagi dan setengah jam untuk Qiamullail ringan (Solat Tahjud, Solat Taubat dan Solat Hajat)
8. Jam 4.30 pagi kaum ibu masak sahur.
9. Jam 5.00 pagi/5.15 pagi makan sahur.
10.Jangan tidur sesudah sahur.
11.Solat Subuh berjemaah di Masjid.
12.Tadarus pendek.
13.Matahari tinggi segalah, lakukan solat Isyraq.
14.Menjalankan kerja harian dan menjaga pancaindera.
15.Jam 11.00 pagi tunaikan Solat Dhuha.
16.Lakukan Solat Kafarah Baul 2 rakaat. Rakaat pertama selepas Fatihah baca Surah Al Kautsar 7 kali dan rakaat kedua selepas Fatihah baca Surah Ikhlas 7 kali.
17.Jam 12.00 tengahari tidur, niat tidur waktu Qailulah (ganti jaga satu jam diwaktu sahur)
18.Solat Zuhur berjemaah.
19.Tadarus pendek.
20.Sebelah petang kaum ibu menyediakan berbuka petang.
21.Solat Asar berjemaah di Masjid.
22.Jika masa petang jangan gunakan untuk bersiar-siar atau menonton TV yang melibatkan kemaksiatan. Sebaik-baiknya digunakan untuk mengikuti majlis-majlis ilmu atau berdoa kerana waktu itu amat mustajab.
23. Berbuka dengan ala kadar iaitu minuman yang belum dipanas oleh api atau dengan buah kurma atau buah tempatan.
24.Segera Solat Maghrib di Masjid.
25.Makan malam bersama keluarga.
26.Bersiap sedia untuk ke masjid menunaikan Solat Isyak dan Tarawikh secara berjemaah.

KELEBIHAN-KELEBIHAN YANG LAIN

1. Menghadiri majlis ilmu setiap langkah di beri pahala ibadah sunah setahun.
2. Mengekali berjemaah diberi balasan dengan disediakan sebuah bandar khas di Syurga.
3. Membuat hubungan baik kepda kedua ibu bapa, Allah pandang dengan penuh kasih sayang.
4. Isteri taat kepada suami diberi pahala seperti pahala Asiah dan Mariam.
5. Sesiapa yang menyampaikan hajat saudaranya disampaikan 1000 hajatnya di akhirat.

Mengurangkan berat badan di dalam menjalani ibadah Ramadhan
1. Sebelum puasa timbang badan
2. Kawal berbuka puasa
3. Pastikan semakin lama menunaikan ibadah puasa akan semakin kurang berat badan
4. Elakan daripada makan berlebihan

RANCANG PENINGKATAN IBADAH RAMADHAN
1. Sepuluh hari yang pertama adakan muhasabah amalan.
2. Sepuluh hari yang kedua, pastikan keimanan bertambah kuat dan selaraskan dengan sempena Nuzul Quran.
3. Sepuluh hari yang ketiga kuatkan azam untuk beramal di malam Al Qadr :
i. Dengan melakukan Solat Maghrib,Isyak dan Tarawikh berjemaah.
ii. Atau ditambah dengan Solat Subuh berjemaah
iii. Duduk dengan air sembahyang dan baca Al-Quran, Ayat Kursi, Surah Al Baqarah terakhir (Amanarrasul), Surah Az-zalzalah, Suraah Al Kafirun, Surah al Ikhlas dan Surah Yasin.
iv. Bagi kaum ibu yang uzur, baca zikir.
v. Bangun pukul 1.00 pagi tunaikan Solat Sunat Wuduk, Solat Hajat, Solat Tasbih, Solat Taubat, Solat Istikarah.
vi. Jika sedang beramal, badan terasa sejuk dan terharu maka inilah tanda-tanda mendapat Lailatul Qadar.

SELAMAT TINGGAL RAMADHAN

i. Pastikan Tarawikh terakhir
ii. Ucapkan Selamat Tinggal Ramadhan dengan penuh terharu dan berdoa semoga dipertemukan sekali lagi dengan Ramadhan yang akan datang.

2006-08-10T13:15:00.000+08:00

A week before i came back to KL, I received an sms from Along, said that my PC crash.
Well, at that moment, surely that's the last thing i wanna hear rite, marah laa...dh la lama tak jumpa pc ku itu kan...

But then, the day that i arrived from Tganu,
I tried to on my pc and, surprisingly, it's working!!~

ok... that's the introduction...

a week after that, as to make my pc live longer, i did some clean up, uninstall unnecessary things and also defragment hard disk, while doing those, suddenly my pc turned off....and that's it...
felt so sad... my precious...uwaa...

ok...i'm getting in to it now...

so, after what had happened, i've tried everyday to turn it on again,
day 1, 2,3,4,5,6 and
then day 7 i tried again....

It's alive !!!!~
I was so surprised to see it finally working as usual except i noticed a lot of spyware stuffs while doing scanning....that must be the reason why it happened...

ok...so i began cleaning all the spyware, but uh, it's so hard to get rid all of it....unfortunately my antivirus just expired 2 mths ago, no wonder la kan....

and so later at night, i was thinking that maybe if i off the pc tonight to not letting the spyware to spread all over the machine, but then i forgot to take off the network adapter....

The next morning...cannot on the machine again!!!
How sad!
After all the thinking, i've came up with a theory,
that maybe after 7 days, it'll be back alive and kicking again!

I really really hope that it'll happen!

so, counting days people.... i hope my theory is true....

anyway people....any idea on what actually happened to my dearest boyfriend a.k.a my pc laaa...
please tell me...

2006-08-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

Farewell Dinner & Graduation Day

It's been quite sometimes that i hav'nt really blog. Almost 2 months i've been away from home, and now i am back in my home sweet home. And as time flies so fast, i've been working for almost 5 months already, and insyaAllah will be confirmed next month.

2 months felt like 2 years, but when it's all over, it feels like we just started yesterday.

I'm talking bout the PETRONAS Induction Programme for new Executives or, in short, also known as PIPE IV (we're in the forth Batch). There are 66 new execs, so there goes 66 unique characters. It's fun, but way too much fun.

We started in Permata, Bangi for 2 weeks, then continued in Batu Rakit, Tganu for 6 weeks. Overall, we learned almost every basic things about PETRONAS business. It's benificial for those technical execs, and for those involved in the Oil & Gas industry, but probly irrelevant for the non-technicals exec. But, I guess, it's worth it to get the knowledge at least for the future and as an introduction to the company, a very formal one. Anyway, it felt more like a vacation. Imagine this, 2 months holiday, staying in a resort, beach and sea-view, dinner taken care of, goin places around East Coast and plus, the best part, u still get paid to do all this (Full salary).

And the most important part, you get to know new people. This is the time to get some networking done. You may not need it now, but probly for future or at least having someone you know around the block. And new friends especially the international staff from Sudan and Ethiopia...some of them are really kewl...

PIPE IV Casts

I've been having all sorts of feeling the past two months, and i've actually glad that it all had ended. And up till now, there were things that i regretted doing, and some things that i regretted not doing. Damage has been done, and no turning back. And, I dont wanna think about it anymore.

After the 2 month, as I came back to the office, the usual office routine felt easier, and communiction with colleagues are more friendly than usual. Not to mention that i was assigned to do a sharing session during our weekly ritual tazkirah on Monday about my 2 months Induction. Heh, and to my surprise, i was bombarded with questions on the corporate agenda, which i remembered only a little about it, as i actually slept during the lecture at Permata. Thanks to my boss, he actually saved me, by giving some explaination about it. Wah, cover baik punyerr....

Anyway, i've put up some photos above, that;s the only time that i took out my dgcam as i was too embarassed of its physical which is full of plaster here and there. :p

My wish list for this year:
- new digicam
- new mobile phone (3G)
hope to achieve it by the next 2 months iA!

I'll end my entry now, we'll post more later.....when i'm in the mood to blog again...happy reading people!!!~ u know who u are....miahaha....

2006-07-30T09:21:00.000+08:00

Aku sudah pulang.....

tu je nk ckp...

2006-07-20T15:35:00.000+08:00

Aku masih di sini....
Lagi seminggu...
Menanti dgn sabar!

2006-07-07T18:16:00.000+08:00

sakit otak

it's getting worst!

p/s: i think i'm emotionally ok now....i guess so...

2006-06-19T18:35:00.000+08:00

I'm not happy....here....

These long period far from my home....makes me sick....
I know i'm not good in expressing myself...
but i know that this environment i'm in right now, is not the healthiest environment ever...
I'm so weak....

God, Please let me go through this in a good way.... I need YOU to guide me in this situation...
I need some encouragement, help me people!!

Cant really write a lot now....

I'm sp stressed up...
This is so not a BLUE sky holiday!!

2006-05-15T21:08:00.000+08:00

The Question is: WOULD YOU MARRY YOU?

One of the first things that most people think about when preparing for or thinking about marriage, are the characteristics or qualities of the person they would like to marry.

Some people think about how they want their potential husband or wife to look - perhaps they think about such things as hair and skin color. Some men may look for a wife who is an excellent cook, and some women may look for a husband who is very religious. Nonetheless, most people, Muslims included, seem to go to great lengths to make elaborate lists, either on paper or in their minds, about all the things they want or expect from their potential husband or wife.

And while this is good and perhaps a very necessary part of the marriage search, few people ever sit down, and with the same purposefulness and care, enumerate their own qualities and characteristics or think about whether they, themselves, are the kind of people that someone else with just as high expectations or ideals would want to marry.

Think outside of yourself for a moment: If you were someone else, would you marry you? I don't mean you, as you would like to see yourself weeks, months or even years from now. Nor do I mean you as you imagine yourself after you have had a chance to change a few of your bad habits, improve your character, fix yourself up, or you after you begin to practice your religion more seriously. I mean you, as you are TODAY.
I believe that if some people were to be completely honest with themselves, they would have to admit that they, themselves, do not possess the kind of qualities or characteristics they would want in a husband or wife. Perhaps we all know of someone like this? Possibly a relative of ours, a best friend or maybe this person is YOU.

For two people who are experienced at it, marriage, at best, can be difficult. It requires patience, diplomacy, perseverance, flexibility, wisdom, and endurance, just to name a few things. Does this mean that if someone does not possess ALL of these qualities they should not get married? No, I don't mean to say this.

However, there are people that I have come across that are in a desperate race to get married; while at the same time they possess characteristics of selfishness, stubbornness, inflexibility, insensitivity, and ingratitude. They are overly critical of other people while at the same time they have difficulty accepting criticism of themselves. And they have poor communication skills. On top of all of that, they may be in denial and won't face up to the fact that they have a *few* personality defects to iron out before getting married.

Do any of these ill-mannered characteristics describe you or someone you know that is looking for a wife or a husband? Has anyone ever told YOU that you possess any of these characteristics? Marriage is so serious; an affair that I would dare say that if someone looking to get married possesses some or all of these qualities, they may be headed for big trouble. Or, should I say anyone that marries a person like this might be in very, very big trouble?

The question then becomes: Does a person who possesses these kinds of shortcomings have to wait years before getting married? I would say the answer is NO! Someone like this doesn't have to wait years to get married. Allah, The Sublime, says in the Quran that He will never change the condition of a people until they first change what is inside of them. This ayah offers hope - hope of a new tomorrow. Isn't that what most people want? They want to know that whatever difficulties they are facing today, a change is on the horizon for tomorrow. However, it does not only offer hope. It offers hope on a condition. That condition is that we have to take the first step to recognize that we have a problem and then do something about it.

Can a man who is a drunk ever become sober unless he recognizes that he has a problem? And can a man that is insensitive, inflexible, stubborn, ungrateful, rigid, and selfish ever be a good husband? Someone who is in denial about their faults will never be able to change their negative pattern of behavior until they first recognize and ADMIT that they have a problem.

Once you can admit that you have a problem, the next step is to begin working diligently and consistently on your problem or negative characteristics. The key words here are working diligently AND consistently. As any doctor will tell you, a patient has to be diligent and consistent about taking their medicine in order to see good results. Couple this prescription that Allah gives us in the Quran with prayer and strong faith, InshaAllah, you can overcome any problem.

If after taking a good long, honest look at yourself in the mirror you cannot honestly say that you would make a good husband or wife in your present condition, then before you pick up the pen to enumerate a list of all the fine qualities you are looking for in a wife or husband, instead, why not list some of the qualities that you need to work on, and then embark on a program to change these bad qualities so that someday soon when Allah does bless you with a good wife or husband you will be worthy of such a person? After all, isn't the divorce rate high enough already?

Love is a force that uplifts and inspires mankind. Children starve without it. Men and Women wither and decay when it is lacking. Yet it costs nothing, the values of love can not be measured by material standards. Allahu a'lam.

**this entry is just something for u, me and everyone to ponder upon. Not mine, it's from a forwarded email. Interesting eh....:p You would probably don't realize it, but come to think about it...would you really wanna marry a person like YOU ?? Think hard! Of course, we can't be that PERFECT, but at least we try to improve day by day... aite?

2006-05-14T17:36:00.000+08:00

No update.

I really need a blue sky holiday!
Above pic dedicated to my fella sisters...
I want a new, slim, more functions, digital camera like this .
I'm so gonna get it soon!!!!~
I'm in love with photography again.

Plus, I hate driving!!!!!
Driving makes me sick.

Just my random thoughts for today.
I'll add some more when i have the mood.

2006-04-29T19:25:00.000+08:00

12 SIFAT SAHABAT

1. Jika engkau berbuat bakti kepadanya, ia akan melindungimu.

2. Jika engkau rapatkan persahabatan dengannya, dia akan membalas baik persahabatanmu itu.

3. Jika engkau perlukan pertolongan daripadanya berupa wang dan sebagainya ia akan membantumu.

4. Jika engkau menghulurkan sesuatu kebaikan kepadanya, ia akan menerima dengan baik.

5. Jika ia mendapat sesuatu kabajikan (bantuan) daripadamu, ia akan menghargai atau menyebut kebaikanmu.

6. Jika ia melihat sesuatu yang tidak baik daripadamu, ia akan menutupnya.

7. Jika engkau meminta sesuatu bantuan daripadanya, ia akan mengusahakannya.

8. Jika engkau berdiam diri (kerana malu hendak meminta), ia akan menanyakan kesusahanmu.

9. Jika datang sesuatu bencana menimpa dirimu, ia akan meringankan kesusahanmu(membuat sesuatu untuk menghilangkan kesusahan itu).

10. Jika engkau berkata kepadanya, nescaya ia akan membenarkanmu.

11. Jika engkau merancangkan sesuatu, nescaya ia akan membantumu.

12. Jika kamu berdua berselisih faham, nescaya ia lebih senang mengalah untuk menjaga kepentingan persahabatan.

2006-04-18T19:53:00.000+08:00

I was away for a few days. Went to Tronoh doing understudy on how the EDUCAMP were held. It feels good to be back home now. I am on unrecorded leave today, but will be going back to Tronoh tmrw for the 2nd batch EDUCAMP. Was not aware before that in the edu division, you get to travel a lot. But, i guess, i'll get use to it later. It's been one month of new phase. It's hard to keep up, working really take almost all your time in a day. Worried that i'm not using my time efficiently, feels like your life had been controled and committed all day long. I just hope that i'll improved soon.

By the time, Verily, men is in loss. (103:1-2)

AND I really need to get back on my driving skills (never had one pun actually), i'm so sick thinking about it... at least, i tried a few times when Along came back from Melaka... but still, she as the unqualified instructor reported that i still cant go on the road alone yet....haha....then i guess i knew already what the JPJ a.k.a Abah will say... of course la "cannot..... wait till you pass!"

Semua Tentang Kita
I miss everyone in pics below! Miss those days.....so so so much!

(during our last BBQ at Roma Street Parkland)

(at Wynum)

Best Photos that i just found!
And these 2 pics below are taken during trip to Toowomba last summer. I was looking back at those pics, and i thought of posting these pretty pics here.

Later...daa...

2006-04-11T15:39:00.000+08:00

Persoalan di kala ditimpa dugaan

Assalamualaikum wr wb. kadang-kadang ... bilamana kita dilanda pelbagai ujian dan dugaan hati ini selalu sahaja merintih... dan pelbagai persoalan timbul dibenak hati sanubari kita.......

KENAPA AKU DIUJI ?

" Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan (saja)mengatakan: "Kami telah beriman," sedang mereka tidak diuji lagi? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji orang-orang yang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang dusta. "

-Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

KENAPA AKU TIDAK DAPAT APA YANG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN ?

" ..... Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui. "

-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI ?

" Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya."

-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

RASA KECEWA ??

" Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah (pula) kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi derajatnya, jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman. "

-Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA ?

" Hai orang-orang yang beriman, bersabarlah kamu dan kuatkanlah kesabaranmu dan tetaplah bersiap siaga (di perbatasan negerimu) dan bertakwalah kepada Allah supaya kamu beruntung. "

-Surah Al-Imran ayat 200

"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan sabar dan shalat. Dan sesungguhnya yang demikian itu sungguh berat, kecuali bagi orang-orang yang khusyu', "

-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

APA YANG AKU DAPAT DARIPADA SEMUA INI ??

" Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari orang-orang mu'min, diri dan harta mereka dengan memberikan surga untuk mereka ..... "
-Surah At-Taubah ayat 111

KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP ?

" ..... Cukuplah Allah bagiku; tidak ada Tuhan selain Dia. Hanya kepada-Nya aku bertawakkal. Dia adalah Tuhan yang memiliki 'Arsy yang agung. "

-Surah At-Taubah ayat 129

AKU DAH TAK DAPAT BERTAHAN LAGI !!!!!!!!!!

" ..... dan jangan kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dari rahmat Allah, melainkan kaum yang kafir. "

-Surah Yusof ayat 87

Semoga segala persoalan dan rintihan yang melanda jiwa dan sanubari kita terubat dengan janji-janji Allah.sesungguhnya kepada kitab suci Al-Quran lah tempat kita merujuk segala permasalahan kerana ialah penawar untuk kita.Dengan itu marilah kita kembali kepada Al-Quran.Kembali mengamalkan ajaran yang terkandung sepenuhnya.

2006-03-22T21:53:00.000+08:00

I wonder does everyone who just start working felt the same way that i do now?
Ok, firstly, this is really new to me.
I guess i'm not matured enough to work right now.
But am ready to take the challenge.

Working in an education department was quite busy actually.
I dun meant me being busy at the moment, but lookin at all my office mate around me.
Still adapting myself to the new environment.
What i see now is so totally different from what i though when i was a student before.
Managing scholars welfare is not an easy task.
Sadly us student (used to be once) never really appreciate what the ESU people were doing for us. Keep on complaining some more. (that goes to me too actually...)
Now that i'm one of the officer in the department,it would somehow change my view and perception. So, my advice to the scholars (YOU!), please stop complaining, stop asking for allowance increment, stop blaming anything to the sponsors, and yada,yada...
After all, they really had help u a lot, and tried hard to make things easier for all.
But everything needs to follow procedure, that's why we have the manager and all the supporting staff around, if not, better work alone.

Quite scary at first, but once u know them, it's like a family in there.
Working as a team, helping each other.

There are a few responsibilities that i have to take over from now on,
First is to manage the completed studies scholars who are not reccomended in the Structured Interview to go for training in the Graduate Training Programme.
Second, to manage the Proffessional Accontancy Programme for scholars and staffs,
and also managing the Transfer of Contract for scholars who wish to work with other company after not getting any work offer from Pet.
Hrm...a bit challenging rite...

Now is a very crucial period in ESU.
Online application for the scholarship just ended yesterday.
Had been given the opportunity to be one of the Hotliners for the online application.
Seriously, it's not easy handling all those calls from students and parents.
One typical Malaysian attitude that we realized , they dont read instruction!!!~
It was well written in the website, but they just don ever think of reading it.
But yeah, being professional, we answered it polite and nice. (but dlm hati sape tauu...)

And the next thing happened to me, was assigned to do advertisement for the OQ application plak. Huhu...need to learn a lot of things....
But so far so good, i'm still coping up ....
Excited gak...

Pray for me the best k!
Everyday is a learning task eventho we're not a student anymore.......
i'll stop typing now, esok keje nk kena bgn awai...

2006-03-10T20:12:00.000+08:00

Salam to all...

Guess wut?
I've actually had been employed by Petronas and will start working in KLCC Petronas Twin Tower on the 16th March.
Syukur Alhamdulillah.
I was offered a place as an Exec at the Education Sponsorship Unit in the Education Division.
Was actually been told about this on the 1st March, but finally had the guts to write it in here today as i just received the result of my Medical check-up yersterday. I'm fit and recommended!

Will finally resign as 'Penganggur professional' soon!

And not forgetting to congrat Najwa too, she's the new Exec at the HR dept, we'll start working together on that day!

Will be hoping for the BEST on this.

"Janganlah seorang pun daripada kamu menjadi orang yg tidak berpendirian, beliau mengatakan: "Aku bersama orang ramai, jika mereka berbuat baik aku akan berbuat baik, sekiranya mereka berbuat jahat, aku akan berbuat jahat (pula)," tetapi kamu mestilah menetapkan diri kamu, apabila orang berbuat baik, kamu mestilah berbuat baik, sekiranya mereka berbuat jahat, kamu mestilah menjauhkan diri daripada kejahatan mereka."

(Hadith Riwayat Tirmidzi)

2006-03-07T16:59:00.000+08:00

Dapat citer ni dari seorg sahabat....menarik nih...utk peringatan semua...
baca jgn tak baca...

Adalah seorang hamba Allah ni, dia pergilah bersiar-siar di tepi hutan.
Sedang dia menghirup udara rimba yg segar tu, tetiba dia terdengar satu
bunyi... jeng!jeng!jeng!... bunyi....aauuummmmm!!!!! Bunyi harimau yg
kelaparan dan hanya menunggu mangsanya saja. Jadi, si hamba Allah ni
pun lari untuk menyelamatkan diri. Harimau tu kejar hamba Allah ni.
Sebab dia dah lapar sangat ni.

Harimau tu pun kejar, kejar, kejar dan kejar. Hamba Allah ni punyalah
takut, berlari lintang pukang. Sempat juga dia berdoa agar dia
diselamatkan daripada dibaham dek harimau tadi. Dengan kuasa Allah
diperlihatkan sebuah perigi di depan mata ya. Jadi untuk menyelamatkan
diri si hamba Allah ni pun terjunlah ke dalam perigi.

Perigi tu ada tali dan sebuah timba. Si hamba Allah ni bergayut pada
tali tu. Tali tu pendek jer. Jadi dia bergantungan di tengah-tengah
perigi. Di mulut perigi, harimau yg lapar tu menunggunya. Si hamba
Allah ni pun berfikirlah macam mana nak menyelamatkan diri, sambil
berdoa kepada Allah agar dia diselamatkan. Tengah dok berfikir camner
nak
sel! amat, tetiba dengar bunyi kocakan air di bawah perigi.

Aaaaa!!!!... Ya Allah..... lagilah seram dibuatnya. Nak tahu ada apa
kat bawah tu? Ada 2 ekor buaya yg kelaparan. Apalah nasib. Dah jatuh
ditimpa tangga. lagilah takut si hamba Allah ni. Atas ada harimau
bawah ada
buaya. Semakin risau dan takut. Tengah berfikir untuk mencari jalan
keluar, tetiba keluar seekor tikus putih dari lubang celah-celah
perigi, naik ke atas ikut tali yg hamba Allah tu bergayut. Sampai kat
atas tikus tu gigit t! ali tu pulak. Cis, kurang ajar punya tikus.
Alahhhh.... cam ner ni. Pas tu, keluar lagi seekor tikus yg berwarna
hitam. Naik mengikut tali tadi, cit!cit! cit!cit! sampai kat atas.Tikus
hitam ni pun gigit juga tali tu. Cis, lagi satu. Macam mana aku nak
buat ni.... habislah jadi mangsa buaya .

Berfikir lagi. Kalau naik kat atas makan dek harimau. Kalau tunggu tali
putus dan jatuh ke bawah makan dek buaya. Macam mana nih... Sedang
hamba Allah tu berfikir cam ner nak selamatkan dirinya,
tetiba....terdengar
satu bunyi.... uuuuuuuuuuuuu... bunyi lebah bawa madu. Si hamba Allah
ni pun mendongak ke langit, melihat lebah yg sedang bawa madu.

Tetiba setitik madu terjatuh dan terus masuk ke dalam mulut si hamba
Allah ni tadi. Punyalah nikmat sehingga tidak terkata. Hamba Allah tu
kata, "Fuh manisnya madu ni , tak pernah ku rasa manisnya ni. Sedapnya.
Subhanallah sungguh sedap ni." Kerana setitik madu si hamba Allah tu
lupa pada harimau yg sedang menantinya di mul! ut perigi dan buaya yg
menantinya di bawah.

Kalau semua nak tahu , si Hamba Allah itu adalah kita semua. Harimau yg
mengejar tu adalah maut kita, ajal memang sentiasa mengejar kita, so
beringat-ingatlah. 2 ekor buaya itu adalah malaikat Munkar Dan Nakir yg
menanti kita di alam kubur nanti. Tali yg tempat si hamba bergayut tadi
adalah jangka hayat kita kalau pendek talinya maka panjanglah umur kita
dan kalau panjang talinya maka pendeklah umur kita.

Tikus Putih dan Hitam tu adalah dunia kita siang dan juga malam yang
sentiasa menghakis umur kita.Kan tikus tu gigit tali tu. Madu...,madu
yg jatuh setitik ke dalam mulut hamba itu tadi adalah nikmat dunia.
Bayangkan setitik sa! ja madu tu jatuh ke dalam mulutnya,dia lupa pada
harimau dan buaya tu. Macam kitalah bila dapat nikmat sikit lupa pada
Allah. Waktu susah baru la nak ingat Allah...

Moral of the story?
for me:
ingat Tuhan setiap masa, tp slalu kita terleka kan dgn mende2 di sekeliling, mcm citer td bila susah jer nk ingat, masa senang tak ingat pun. Kalo camtu la, Allah pun jarang la nk ingat kita slalu. Samalah kalo kita nk org ingat kita, kita kena ingat org tu jugak. kalo dia tau kita tak ingat kat dia, buang masa jer dia ingat kat kita kan...heh, analogikuu...
jadi mau ingat laa.....ingat Allah sentiasa, bila susah, bila senang, bila happy, bila sedey, bila seronok, bila -bila laaa....
Nak tau camner nk tau kalo Allah ingat kita?
Bila kita ingat Allah laaa....
kan??

iA ramai yg dpt somthing from citer ni kan?
nak dgr gak aper yg korg dpt,
so plz do write some down at the comment area k!!~

2006-02-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

Interesting article .... dapat kat blog seorg adik, baca laaa... buka minda anda....

MARAH KERANA CINTA, BUKAN KERANA BENCI...
Oleh: Pahrol Mohamad Juoi
@ http://www.fitrahperkasa.net/

Saya masih ingat sikap 'unik' (aneh) sesetengah orang-orang tua kampung dulu-dulu. Ruang di bawah rumah mereka selalunya diperuntukkan untuk meletakkan barang usang yang 'kurang' atau tidak perlu. Selalunya botol-botol, tin-tin atau papan-papan buruk. Entah kenapa semua itu tidak dibuang. Hanya di letakkan begitu sahaja. Diguna tidak, dibuang pun tidak. Peliknya, apabila barang-barang 'antik' itu hendak diambil oleh orang lain, cepat-cepat pula mereka melarangnya. Tak boleh â€“ nak guna, sayang, dan macam-macam alasan.Itulah sebuah analogi yang terlintas di fikiran bila saya ditanya tentang kemarahan umat Islam terhadap penyiaran karikatur menghina nabi Muhammad s.a.w oleh akhbar-akhbar Eropah khususnya Denmark.

''Encik tidak marah?'' tanya seorang siswa sehabis sahaja majlis diskusi tentang topik berkenaan.

''Marah,'' akui saya perlahan.

''Tak cukup begitu sahaja. Esok kita berarak, bakar bendera Denmark!''

Saya senyum.

''Kita ada cara yang lebih baik. Ada senjata yang lebih hebat. Doa,'' balas saya.

''Kita kena tunjuk kemarahan kepada mereka yang menghina Rasul.''

''Menunjukkan kecintaan kepada Rasul lebih utama.''

''Marah itulah tanda kecintaan kita!''

''Betul. Tetapi membuktikan kecintaan dengan mengamalkan sunnahnya jauh lebih utama.''

''Encik takut?''

Saya renung matanya.

''Mengamalkan sunnah Rasul memerlukan lebih keberanian! Tentangannya lebih hebat. Bahkan daripada orang Islam sendiri,'' tusuk saya perlahan.

''Kita bakar bendera mereka!''

''Kita 'bakar' cara hidup mereka. Itu lebih relevan.''

Giliran dia pula yang diam. Mungkin siswa yang 'terbakar' ini mula mengunyah maksud kiasan saya.Lalu saya ceritakan analogi awal tadi. Alhamdulillah, dia mendengar teliti.

''Kita dengan sunnah, seperti orang tua-tua dahulu dengan barang-barang usang di bawah rumah. Nak digunakan tidak, nak dijunjung jauh sekali, tetapi bila ada orang lain nak mengambilnya, barulah heboh konon nak digunakan.''

''Bagaimana kita hendak tunjukkan perasaan marah?''

''Demontrasi depan manusia. Depan Allah, kita berdoa. Kita muhasabah, sejauh mana kecintaan kita kepada Rasul-Nya. Mungkin provokasi Barat membawa pengajaran tersirat.''

''Pengajaran tersirat?''

''Ya, tersirat dari Allah! agar kita menilai semula benar-benarkah kita mencintai sunnah Rasul-Nya selama ini.''

''Kemarahan ummah inilah buktinya,"ujarnya bersemangat.

''Kemarahan cuma bermusim. Hanya luapan sentimen berkala. Namun kegigihan, kebijaksanaan, perancangan dan ketabahan jangka panjang amat perlu.''

''Maksud encik?''

Jelas dia terpancing dengan kilasan dan kiasan kata-kata.

''Jangka panjang, sudahkah kita mendidik generasi muda mencintai Rasul dan keluarganya? Saya risau generasi muda yang mabuk hedonisme kini tidak akan punya kemarahan yang sama seperti yang saudara alami.''

''Saya ada kawan-kawan sebaya yang hidupnya lintang pukang, tapi masih marah bila Rasulullullah dipersendakan. Mereka akan turut berarak esok!"

''Hidup lintang-pukang? Macam mana tu?'' tanya saya minta kepastian.

''Rock habis. Sembahyang tidak. Bergaul bebas biasalah! tapi cinta mereka terhadap Rasul tak luntur.''

''Ajak mereka sembahyang dulu. Tak berarak pun tak apa. Cinta dulu, marah kemudian. Bila ada cinta, pasti ada marah bila kecintaan dicela. Tapi kalau marah saja, belum tentu ada cinta!''

Dia diam lagi. Kali ini diamnya lebih panjang.

''Agaknya orang tua tu marah tak kalau kita ambil barang-barang berharga di atas rumah?'' tanyanya tiba-tiba.

''Orang tua mana?'' tanya saya semula. Hairan.

''Orang tua dalam analogi encik tadi itulah!''

''Soalan tu kurang umph'',gurau saya.

''Habis soalan apa yang umph?''

''Agaknya orang berani tak hendak minta barang di atas rumah? Berbanding barang usang di bawah rumah?'' balas saya.Termenung lagi dia. Seronok rasanya 'membimbing' siswa ini berfikir. Terimbau luapan semangat saya sewaktu di kampus dulu. Beginilah pola berfikir saya. .

Tiba-tiba dia bersuara, ''tentu tak berani, kerana barang di atas rumah tentu lebih berharga.''''Begitulah sunnah, jika dihayati, diamalkan dan diperjuangkan. Ia nampak sangat berharga di tangan pencintanya. Musuh tak kan berani mengusiknya, apalagi nak menghinanya!''

''Encik ni, tak sangka ke situ pula kiasannya.''

''Kita orang Islam mesti menghormati diri sendiri terlebih dahulu, barulah orang lain akan menghargai kita. Justeru, jika kita marahkan musuh yang mengecam Rasul, marahkanlah juga diri kita yang tidak benar-benar mencintainya!''

''Dan bukti cinta amalkan sunnah Rasul. Itulah cara paling berkesan mempamerkan 'kemarahan' kepada musuh-musuh yang menghinanya.''

Alhamdulillah, saya yakin, kini marahnya kerana cinta bukan kerana benci. Dominasi cintakan Rasul bukan emosi bencikan musuhnya!

2006-02-23T20:29:00.000+08:00

Alrite...
Believe it or not...
it's been 2 months now that i'm back in M'sia.
I AM STILL MISSING BRISSY and ALL THE PEOPLE THERE.

Wut i've been doing lately?
With no blog entries?
Alrite...i'll update some today...

I've finally went to see Rabbit in Melaka.
Catching up after being apart for almost 5-6 months.
Glad to see that u're doing fine there.
Will always pray the BEST for u!
Nice to see u again my fren!!~
Anyway...can't wait for the weekend, hehe...

Congrats to Salwa and Huda.
Both had been employed now...
Salwa will be goin to Bintulu, and Huda will be in KLCC.
Wow, they can really put u anywhere huh...
Wherever place u'll go...
Believes that Allah gives the BEST for u!
And to others, keep on praying for the BEST.
Sabar, insyaAllah...ur time will come...
that goes to me too actually... :)

And since i was at home most of the time,
I was informally had been selected as the Cook for the family.
Supposedly still under probation,
but i guess, will be up-graded soon.

Who ever will think that finally i can cook myself without being pushed?
All this time, I've been such a bummer, too lazy to cook.
Now, i'm doing the cooking with all my heart, heh.
Well, "dikerah tenaga" at first,
but then was quite excited bout it.
But it will also depends on my mood.
Sometimes too much cooking makes me sick.
Imagined that by the time u finished cooking, u had already been asked about what's for tommorow.
Sorry la...that just spoiled my mood and my enthusiasm.

Well, i've finally made Tiramisu!!!
But, I guess i made a mistake, just a small one.
Cam cair sket...but the taste is there, serious!~
heh...just to make me feel gud myself ....
nvm, there's always room for improvement next time insyaAllah.
To Along and Achik...want some?..then come home la k!!~

To end the entry for today,
I would love to paste this hadith as a reminder to everyone including me,

Narrated Ibn 'Abbas r.a : Once I was behind the Prophet S.A.W, and he said:
"O Boy, I will teach you a few words:
(a) Be loyal and obedient to Allah [worship Him (alone)], remember Him always, obey His Orders. He will save you from every evil and will take care of you in all the spheres of life.
(b) Be loyal and obedient to Allah , you will find Him near (in front of you)
(c) If you ask, ask Allah.
(d) If you seek help, seek help from Allah.
(e) Know that if all the people get together in order to benefit you with something, they will not be able to benefit you in anything except what Allah has decreed for you. And if they all get together in order to harm youwith something, they will not be able to harm youin anything except what Allah has decreed for you "

Hadith At-Tirmidhi

Wasallam...

2006-02-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

Salam to everyone.
Seems like i havent been blogging long enuff rite.
Well, nothing to update though.
The status is still unemployed.
No comment on that.
Heard that some of my friends had been offered already.
Rezeki masing2 kan... Happy for them...
I'll pray harder for mine ...:)

I think it's time for me to do something,
rather than just sit back at home.
So, for the first time ,
followed Mama to her Harfiah class (not sure the spelling...)
As expected la kan...
i'm the only young lady in the class...not suprising at all.
It was good.
Mama seated at front, coz she's the treasure (i supposed) collecting the monthly fees from all her friends.
I watched her from my fourth row seat, looking at her and her friends....
mama is so small....like me among my friends...but it seems like everyone knew her...

The class was good, pengisian was nice and understandable eventho the ustaz was actually from Indonesia. He was teaching at front ayah from Ali Imran: 56-58. About 2 types of people; the believers and the disbelievers, the rewards and the azab, and also reminder of the late prophets before Muhammad S.A.W. from Quran.

He also touched a lil bit of the hot controversy issues in the world today. What else, about the Danish Cartoon potraying Rasulullah which had make all Muslims in the whole world mad and angry bout it. Well, i personally think that we shud, coz dont u think our pride and dignity as a Muslim had been violated by them making a fool of our Prophet SAW? If we dont have our stand on this issue, just wait till their next step on making fool of our religion then.Unless, you dont care about it at all. They might not realized that, they just triggered the wrong button, like a wake up call.

Anyways, the issues are more likely like 'membuka pekung di dada' for them. While they were denying and sitting behind the reason of " the freedom of speech ". They were actually letting everyone knows that, the freedom that they were using are destroying them back. It just dont work if u dont have the sensitivity towards religion. And if u see it clearly, the freedom that the were holding at is actually killing them inside, u can see it through their family institution, government administration , and now, their newspapers.
Well, we all know that every freedom without responsibility, will only leads to disaster....
I dun really know how to comment much about this, but that's a lil bit of my two cents that i can think of now...

Owh...one more thing, wut we can do now is...boycott products from them....that's better than using violance or wutever....silence killer beb...

Back to my day today, it was not the first time of attending such classes with mama, been doing that eversince after SPM (since i'm at home doing nothing, dun wanna work some more, that;s the only thing that mum can think of for me).
Kinda worried too actually.

Well, with current situation, mama and abah do urged me to go and get a casual job while waiting for Pet offer. Well, it's not that i dun wanna do that , but it's just that, i dun wanna do it yet, there's another thing that i am prioritizing at now.
It's hard now, u dont have any income, and u dont wanna just being dependent on ur parents for financial stuff, and u also need to recharge ur mobile phone, ha!
Arghh...talking bout this, makes me feel angry, still not receiving any money on our key deposit and end-of-studies allowance from Pet! Urghh....wondering what taken them this long, it's almost 2 months already.....

Sigh...
I wanted to do so many things actually,
but none really had achieved any progress.

Been reading my previous entries since last year.
Funny when u read it back.
Sometimes u feel like, "OMG how in the world did i wrote all this...?"
Some are just crap...
but then, i enjoyed looking back at my edited images that i posted together with the entries.
It somehow had make me feel soooo the 'rindus' with Brisbane!
I wonder whether my future entries will be as exciting as my previous ones? At least, exciting and all for me , that's enuff.

ok la...ngantuk already....
nitey...
just wait for another entry a few days later or more....
depends on my mood too...

2006-01-14T09:29:00.000+08:00

I got this from friendster, i found it interesting and would like to share with all of u...

TAZKIRAH: Berapa ramai suami yang boleh jadi
imam???

Kalau perempuan tidak boleh memasak, dikutuk dan
disuruh belajar. Kalau lelaki tak boleh jadi imam
kita kata okay saja. Jangan diperbesarkan nanti
mereka terasa hati.

"Apalah perempuan, tak pandai masak siapa nak
kahwin dengan awak!" Begitulah kata rakan sejawat
lelaki pada seorang anak dara, juga rakan sejawat
kami. Maka jawaplah si gadis ayu itu yang dia
tidak sempat belajar memasak sebab dari kecil
tidak digalakkan keluarga sebaliknya di suruh
menumpukan perhatian pada pelajaran saja.
Sementelah tinggal di asrama, peluang pulang ke
rumah terhad dan tidak sempat turun ke dapur
membantu ibunya.

"Habis sekarang kenapa tidak belajar?" Tanya sang
lelaki lagi dengan penuh semangat. "Sedang
belajarlah ni tetapi selain sibuk dengan kerjaya
saya juga sibuk belajar agama, jadi belajar
memasak tetap tidak diutamakan!" Begitu jawab si
gadis yang membuatkan lelaki tadi
menggeleng-geleng kepala. Baginya tidak sempurna
seorang wanita jika tidak tahu memasak.

Wanita sepatutnya buat begitu juga. Syarat utama
menjadi suami mesti boleh menjadi imam. Walau ada
yang kata, jika itu syaratnya bermakna makin ramai
wanita yang hidup bujang seumur hidup.

Lelaki meletakkan kebolehan wanita di dapur
sebagai perkara utama dan ungkapan hendak memikat
suami, perlu pikat seleranya sering diguna pakai.
Tidak kiralah jika wanita itu berpelajaran atau
berjawatan tinggi dan penyumbang utama kewangan
dalam rumahtangganya. Sekarang bukan asing lagi
gaji isteri lebih tinggi daripada suami. Namun
kedudukan suami sebagai raja tidak pernah dilupa
walau dia tidak mengambil inisiatif mempelajari
ilmu menjadi imam. Ilmu bermain video game di
komputer mereka rasa lebih perlu.

Kalau tidak tahu memasak disuruh belajar dan
sesudah belajar perlu handal. Jika handal bukan
setakat masak untuk keluarga sendiri, kalau boleh
perlu boleh memasak untuk tiga pasukan bola.
Begitulah standard yang telah ditetapkan. Bolehkah
kita meletakkan undang-undang itu kepada lelaki
juga. Kalau tidak pandai jadi imam, belajarlah.
Mula-mula jadi imam kepada keluarga sendiri, sudah
boleh mengimam satu taman perumahan juga.

"Sibuk suruh kita handal memasak, mereka tu
bolehkah jadi imam?" Dengus teman wanita yang
lain.Betul juga. Berapa kerat lelaki yang
menjadikan sembahyang jemaah di rumah bersama
anak
isteri sebagai agenda utama, selain keperluan
memenuhi pelbagai seleranya? Maka bertanyalah
wanitakini kepada beberapa lelaki tentang
kebolehan yang satu ini.

Ternyata ramai yang menjawap tidak confident
menjadi imam sebab takut bacaan al-Fatihah tidak
sempurna, salah tajwid atau pun dia merasakan
isterinya lebih handal. Ada yang kata lebih elok
dia dan isteri sembahyang sendiri-sendiri. Ada
juga menjawab, rasa kelakar pula apabila dirinya yang
rugged menjadi imam.

Isu ini sepatutnya kita beratkan sepertimana
masyarakat memberatkan wanita perlu pandai
memasak
jika mahu bersuami. Lelaki juga harus boleh
menjadi imam supaya kewibawaan mereka sebagai
ketua keluarga tidak goyah atau menjadi mangsa
queen control. Kalau tidak pandai, belajarlah
sekarang. Jika wanita disuruh belajar, apa
salahnya lelaki!

2006-01-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

Penganggur terhormat, they called me that now.
I prefer to say that "tanam anggur" is what i do now.

My daily routine these days,
starts after subuh, sidai baju, then buat breakfast, then buang sampah, pastu sapu rumah.
After that, naik atas, bukak pc, tunggu mama panggil kalo nk suruh wat aper2 ker.
Around 11 something, gi masak nasi, masak utk lunch (learn to do new dishes everyday, but yg sempoi2 ajer)
After Zuhur dh rasa ngantuk.
Then sometime after that, mama akan panggil suruh kutip baju dh kering, pastu lipat pulak.
Been doing all this as usual for the past 3 yrs but then, the feeling now is different.
Coz i wont be goin back there anymore.

Wanna go out, but then no money.
Wanna call friends, but then no credit.
Wanna try to do something useful, but then ended up doing something useless.

I tried to involve my self into doing something beneficial, but always in the end, i felt like i'm not doing great, feels like i'm lack of something.
Yeah, probly i'm not confident enough,
or maybe i'm just not doing the best that i can,
or maybe i'm just not born with the capability to do so.

I wanna go out, but i cant drive (supposedly can, but dun wanna talk bout this)
Pity of myself, dun really have the courage to do so.

Sometimes i feel sad and angry at the things happening around me,
but somehow, i cant do anything, cant even say a word.

As in the Hadith narrated by Muslim;
“Siapa saja di antara kalian yang melihat kemungkaran, ubahlah kemungkaran itu dengan tangannya, jika tidak mampu, dengan lisannya, jika tidak mampu, dengan membenci dihatinya. Yang demikian adalah selemah-lemah keimanan” {HR Muslim}

So far, eventho i'm back in M'sia,
i found it hard for me actually to be in the very reserved behaviour,
not only that, iman pun kadang2 turun naik, haihh...

I somehow cherish my previous life as a student in Ozy before, where i took all the responsibility on every action that i do. But i'm no more there, i'm out of my comfort zone, i'm in the reality world.
I wonder why i cant do like that here, maybe not yet, but soon , InsyaAllah.
Coz i understand that, jalan kita tidak ditaburi bunga2 harum....
Moga istiqamah bersama2.....Ameen...

2006-01-06T22:04:00.000+08:00

Yeay..streamyx is back in the house!
Salam AidilAdha!!
Will be goin back to Kedah tomorrow for a couple of days.
InsyaAllah will update more later k!
I am still waiting for job offer from Pet,
they said the earliest probly be Feb or just wait for another 6 months starting the day u report to KLCC...
i wonder when do we get our final allowance and key deposit money?
got all my stuff from jetta last week..
sadly, can't use my my pc now
power supply failure....
thank goodness my hard disk still ok...

orite...
gtg now...
later people!!!

2005-12-28T14:43:00.000+08:00

I'm back in my house finally..
Got myself a new room to myself now..
But still, the kids really like my room, they just like hang out in my room..shuhh..
I'm still waiting for all my stuff that i send by Jetta to arrive..
actually...i want my PC..
all my harta karun is in there...
and fighting for one laptop in the house is so not my favour now...

Btw,
what's my feeling now?
I still cant believe that i'm actually back home and will not be comin back to brizzy anymore..
sad...
the truth is:
I miss Brissy so much!
it's not that i hate M'sia or wut..
it's just that , Brissy is like a home to me...
i dont feel like i'm home now!!

And while i'm looking surrounding me is so not "healthy"...
'sigh'
reality....that i need to face this time...
just have to come out of my comfort zone for now...
gotta be strong coz i know i'm weak...
this is just the beginning...

a reminder to me:

Do people think that they will be left alone because they say;
"We believed", and will not be tested.
29:2

I throw stones at my eyes’cause for way too long
they’ve been dry
Plus they see what they shouldn’t from oppressed
babies to thighs
I throw stones at my tongue’cause it should really
keep its peace
I throw stones at my feet’cause they stray and lead
to defeat
A couple of big ones at my heart’cause the thing is
freezing cold
But my nafs is still alive and kicking unstoppable
and on a roll
I throw bricks at the devil so I’ll be sure to hit
him
But first at the man in the mirror so I can chase
out the venom

2005-12-21T04:45:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day for me in Brissy.
I dont feel anything yet...
or probably mixed and undefined feeling...
been here for 3 1/2 yrs,
the place where i learned abt life a lot,
the place where i grow up to be like an adult,
the place that i feel secure to be me,
the place that i feel i belong here....
i'm so gonna miss everything here....
with all the people.....
always keep in touch k!!!

Will be flying off tonite at 11:50 pm
and insyaAllah arriving after Subuh tmrw.

What i've been doing lately?
meeting up with friends,
packing stuff,
cleaned the house (look so empty now),
settling all my excess baggage using Jetta air freight (100 kgs!!!!)
Had our last swim at CS last night, feels good!

Today?
i wanna take more photos for the last time!!!!
It's GIGAM time!!!!!!

last but not least,

GOODBYE BRISBANE!

WELCOME BACK TO MSIA!

2005-12-18T11:09:00.000+08:00

I'm packing up all my computer stuff in another few minutes...
no more internet after these....
sedey.... :(

2005-12-14T20:57:00.000+08:00

Me with all friends who graduated the same day,
{ Najwa, K anie, Fitri, Aishah, k Mas and Group O}

I'm officially a UQ Graduate!!
And i got flowers on my convo day, thanx a lot salwa and mas!
The long awaited day was great, nice weather and all the photos was superb, thanx again to the photographer of the day, Itot and Salwa.
Everyone's happy, me too.
Cant really describe the feeling.
Dah selesai akhirnyer.....

my favourite

2005-12-10T04:17:00.000+08:00

Mynn, Aishah, Farid, Hafidz, Hasfuan and Nan convocation

It's Convocation Week at UQ.
Congratulations again to all students graduating this semester.
We've finally done!!~
Can't wait for my convo on Monday afternoon.
Went to the ceremony last Wednesday. First time witnessing the event, it was not as bad as what i think. In fact, much better, not a very long ceremony, and everything is so simple and smooth.

Me, Najwa, Salwa and Ili's convo will be next week. Yeay!!~

2005-11-30T07:01:00.000+08:00

Dedicate to my girls, love u girls fillah....always...

Results out this morning. Took a look at it at early 6 am.
I can feel that my heart was beating faster, adrenaline was rushing , hands shaking and trembling.
Alhamdulillah, I'm graduating!!!~
Berkat doa ibu, berkat doa rakan2.
Syukur sangat sangat sangat.

Semalam anta Aiza n Dila ke Airport.
First time balik Mesia , seronok nk balik.
InsyaAllah jumpa lagi kat Mesia.
Setahun je sempat menjadi senior, but nice having juniors like both of u.
Kalo rindu, tgk la gamba2 gigams kita yg banyak2 tuh. hehhe..

Lepas ni, ade yg balik awal, ade yg balik lambat.
I'll be back home on the 21st Dec, InsyaAllah.

Cant wait for my CONVO on the 12th Dec.
Eventhough my family wont be around at that time,
(sendiri tak bg dtg...uwaa...padan muka!)
I'm sure their smile and prayers will be with me that day, ewwah...
Till then, lotsa packing stuff to be done....

Mixed feeling and emotion surrounding me
I hope this is the BEST for me given by Allah.
Ameen....

2005-11-21T12:19:00.000+08:00

I'm back now from a week of visiting Toowomba at south Queensland. Visiting Li, a new friend from Uni South Qld (USQ). It was only 1 and a half hour of journey by bus. Can't believed that i went there alone, hohoho... But then Mas, Leen and Shazlin came along on Wednesday driving all along from Brissie.

Li and her friends brought me to a few nice places there. The weather was not that good a few days earlier, it was raining during the day. Toowomba was so cold during the night eventho it's already early of summer now.
Been around USQ, Japanese Garden, Toowomba City, Table Top Mountain, Picnic Point Lookout, and bush walking looking for wild kanggaroos...

Yeay...been here... in front of USQ signage

Lovely pics at Japanes Garden
Big thanks to these girls, for showing me around.
(fr Left: Me, Li, Shira, Jane)

Finally i'm on top of the TableTop Mountain

Some more nice pics with Leen, i'll get it soon and post it here later k!!~
That's the update for today....more soon...

2005-11-14T10:56:00.000+08:00

My fellow grupmate for IT Project. This was taken during our final demo presentation in week 13. Look how small i am among them. But nice working with them, all so the brotherly one...heheh....and since most of them are singaporeans, my english now also become singlish already...ilang segala slang ozy....:P

anyway, this is for rabbit, jika anda rindu sama x-grupmate mu...especially yg pakai smart2 tuh...heheheh....

And by the time you guys reading this, i'm off to Towomba....
c ya guys next week....bubye!!~

2005-11-08T07:37:00.000+08:00

Officially finished my eXam last night.
No comment bout the last paper.
Should be the lucky one coz finished earlier than others,
but then nobody finished their eXam yet,
so i'm left alone wondering what to do next.
To others who are still struggling with exam,

Ganbatte ne!

To all final year students,
pray hard that we'll graduate together-gether end of the year!

Pic above dedicated to u lovely gals!
raya lagi kan skrg??

2005-11-07T07:55:00.000+08:00

Specially for Rabbit,
the long awaited PQSA jersey!
Wait till i come back and give u this!
We really love the design!
CONGRATS!
u won and u'll get one for free!!~

2005-11-06T01:10:00.000+08:00

I hope it is still not too late to put up a picture of us during raya. The last raya celebrated with friends far from our beloved family and struggling with eXam. But surely it will be a remembered memories for all of us graduating this year.

The celebration of Eid was held at Guyatt Park this year, eventhough it was raining (basah lencun!). This is so different with last year's Eid where the weather was quite hot and sunny! But, everyone was fine with it, raya tetap raya.

Not much people were there since some of them had celebrated raya a day before we did (WestEnd and Lutwyche people). But still everyone was there looking pretty and nice. Everyone from every country were there, Malaysian, Singaporean, Bruneians, Indonesians, everywhere....Yet another situation where we could not get it in Malaysia.

Rite after the celebration at the park, we went to open house at k Zah and A Suffian's house (at least satu open hs pegi) Then gigaming session were done at CS Swimming Pool area. After that, the Raya mode had to be off , changed into Study for Exam mode.

But still, it was a great Hari Raya....it was nice celebrating with you guys. I wish i could put more pics, but time would'nt let me to do so. Have another exam on Monday. Sorry for that...

Last but not least, Sorry Body and Soul, hehehe...

Salam Eidulfitri from Brisbane...................

2005-11-03T15:12:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah syukur lagi hari ni,
setelah pelbagai dugaan menimpa beberapa hari sebelum nk raya nih.
Memang tak ade yg dpt menolong dh.
Hanya dapat memohon drpd Allah jer.
Yg dah lepas tu, kena jadikan pengajaran.
Semoga lepas ni lebih berserah kpd Allah atas setiap yg terjadi dan akan terjadi.

Amat bersyukur kerana Allah mempermudahkan masalah ku.
Amat bersyukur kerana Allah melembutkan hati2 mereka.
Amat bersyukur kerana Allah menenangkan hatiku akhirnya.

Amat bersyukur sangat sangat sangat .....

So Verily, with every difficulty there is relief,
Verily, with every difficulty there is relief.

94:5-6

p/s: Brisbane raya Jumaat!! Esok raya!!~

2005-11-02T11:18:00.000+08:00

Saya nk RAYA , tak nak EXAM.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir dan Batin

2005-10-30T07:09:00.000+08:00

Start counting days for the exam, people!

coz now it's already

SWOTVAC!

Final eXamRaya

Sat 5th Nov TMAN3001

Mon 7th Nov COMP3502

wishing everyone

ALL the BEST!

Pray hard!

2005-10-29T07:54:00.000+08:00

Terrible!

Start badly and u'll end up bad too,

and vice versa!

So not in the mood

**bad thing can happen in the end!**

2005-10-27T22:16:00.000+08:00

Mood: @ d lab anyway

Friday at last!
The last day of uni!
Still....one more assignment to go!
malam terakhir dgn assignment
malam terakhir tido lab

i wonder will i be missing it after this.....
uni life...
sometimes sweet...
sometimes terrible...
no more sleepless night...after this

Yet i'm still struggling for the last and final one
And at this time...
it's not yet finish...
just taking a break from doing modelling n visualisation.

i am sooooo the boring with this tucan thing rite now!!!

somebody get me out of the lab rite now!!!!!

(wasbir wama sobruka illa billah - dan bersabarlah, dan sabar itu tidak lain adalah drpd Allah)

Sabar Fazz, sket jer lagi!!!!!

2005-10-25T20:08:00.000+08:00

Laylatul Qadr

In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful We have indeed revealed this (Message) in the Night of Power: And what will explain to thee what the Night of Power is? The Night of Power is better than a thousand months. Therein come down the angels and the Spirit by God's permission, on every errand: Peace!...This until the rise of morn!

Al-Qadr 97:1-5

2005-10-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

PROMO POSKAD RAYA

Istimewa bulan Ramadhan kali ini,
kirimkan Poskad Raya Pengganti Diri
kepada keluarga dan sahabat tercinta.

Harga:
$2 sekeping
$10 utk 6 keping

Dapatkan yg original,
limited edition nih!
bleh emel saya utk booking
atau jgn lupa datang Pasar Ramadhan Ahad ini,
InsyaAllah!

2005-10-14T20:56:00.000+08:00

Firstly, salam Ramadhan al-Mubarak to everyone.
Sorry for not updating any entry lately.
Was being kept busy with studies and projects.

Today was great.
I'm so in the jacaranda mood nowadays.
Jacarandas 'everywhere.
Just so in love with it.
Here's a pic to express it.

A myth of Jacaranda here,
u know it's time to study for exam when u see jacarandas everywhere.
Well, might be true, cause exam is just around the corner.

Today was the final project demo day for my group.
The demo was at 10 am.
Don't u think time flies really fast?
Suddenly it's demo time already.
It really means that it's already near the end of semester.
Finally presenting our final product to the Project Office.
Everyone can't wait to finish it off.
And now it's done.

Rite after the demo,
rushed on doing the Info Sec assignment 2 due at 3pm.
Submitted it on time.
The feeling of relieves doubled up today.

Had iftar tonight at Darul Uloom.
They're having Qiyam after that.
I'll update more later of the week Insya Allah.

2005-10-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

Bisikan Malam

Bila ku didatangi malam
Gelora perasaan mencengkam dijiwa
Masihkah ada lagi
Dayaku menghindar dari kealpaan

Diterjah berbagai persoalan
Dihujani airmata penyesalan
Bisakah terhapus semua
Segala dosa-noda yang bertakhta

Terangi jalan hidupku
Dengan cahaya kasih Mu
Pimpinlah daku dengan hidayah Mu

Tuhanku...
Di malam syahdu ku merayu
Ampunilah segala dosaku yang lalu
Sujud ku mendambakan keredhaan Mu
Tempatkan daku di dalam rahmat Mu

Tuhanku...
Usah Kau biarkan diri ku
Hanyut terleka, di jiwa dunia membelenggu
Dan aku sesungguhnya pasrah pada Mu
Hidup matiku hanyalah untuk Mu

Ya Allah tunjukkan jalan kebenaran
Suburkan jiwa ku dengan keimanan
Hanya pada Mu Oh Tuhan
Ku sandarkan harapan

2005-10-03T06:15:00.000+08:00

Best Wishes to Nuyu
(Nurul Izzati bt Ismail)
Selamat menghadapi PMR!
Moga tabah berjuang dlm peperiksaan.
Ganbatte!

October Blues

3/10 Modeling n Visualisation Mid Sem Exam
14/10 Info Security Ass 2 due
14/10 Project Final Demo
18/10 TMAN essay 2 due
21/10 Project Review Presentation
29/10 Modelling n Visualisation Ass 2 due

Ganbatte ne!

postcard online for you

2005-10-02T10:07:00.000+08:00

It's sad when u think that u'll be goin back after this semester.
But i think that's why they created digital camera.
It's for u to capture all the moments that u will never ever forget.
Last few days were packed with all sweet memories.
Went to all great places,with great friends, with great sceneries, Subhanallah!

Witnessing Sunrise at Mt Cootha was really great!
After Subuh Prayer with friends coming from NewCastle.
Love it so much!
Will definitely be remembered.

The next day, a day trip to Byron Bay. Love it so much too! Tho it was my second time being there. The scenery never ever bored me. Love this pic so much! For those who thought that i edited the pics, sorry to say but this pic is so totally original k! Just made it look like a postcard only...

Yesterday went to Gold Coast to visit K Izan. She's from Bond Uni. So it was my first time stepping into Bond Uni. One private Uni in Queensland with beautiful sceneries. Still with the Sandstone concept. Lotsa pictures taken but this one I like the most. Later when to Harbour Town, supposedly to do shopping. But ended up buying nothing. So straight ahead we off to Surfers Paradise. Wanting to watch the sunset, but it was at the other side. But still looking at the sea was more than a peaceful feeling to me.

And tomorrow, back to reality. The hustle and bustle of the uni life. One more mid sem exam paper. And continues with all remaining assignments and project to be done.

Ramadhan's coming. Will be the last Ramadhan for me in Brisbane. Still, am looking forward for it.

And now Jaccaranda's blooming. Will be getting nice pics of it , can't wait!

just a pseudo-break

2005-09-26T12:58:00.000+08:00

Yupp...it's the mid semester break.
My groupmate called it pseudo-break.
Coz, the break are actually to do all the assignments and projects.
Well, it does'nt matter to me,
coz at least i have time to finish up stuff...
which are a lot!!

but....
a break is still a break....
This morning we had an Amazing Race Game.
We organized it ourselves, and it was fun.
Really tells u how well u know your uni (after 3 yrs living here!)
All the participants was very well sporting laaaah...
congrats to the winner!!!
Salwa and Fatin!!!~
Thanx to Keluarga Farid as the sponsor for the prize,Nando's.
Many more exciting activities comin through out the break!
Cant wait...!!~

Bu then, now i'm at d lab.
finishing up project stuff...
the user manual help software was'nt being a very good help at this time.
I dunno why it's not working here at the lab,eventho it worked well at home!
haihhh...
one good news,
Information security 2nd assignment due date was extended to the 14th Oct instead of 7th.
Kewl rite...
But, better get started now...
no more procrastinating....
trying to fulfill the break with all beneficial stuff....

Ok...get back to work!

2005-09-24T12:46:00.001+08:00

continues....

Yupp, the demo was over.
Thought so, it was only for a few minutes.
And i got Darren to demonstrate my component to.
So , i did it.
Show him what and how to use it ,
then he ask about some of the codes,
and that's it.
He was'nt that bad, i think he was professional enough...not that scary as what i heard before...
But, i've been marked down about 0.25 marks because some of the parts are not implemented as the requirements wants.
Nevermind, will solve it later.
At last, finished!

Later the afternoon,
met Kak Mas and she invited me to her house.
The thought of goin back and sleep (coz suddenly felt like demam) was terbantut.
So, after borrowing a book at the library,
i went to their house.
Was there until 9 pm.
They were serving food after one another.
Muffins, ice-creams, nasik ayam....
so the very-very the kenyang...
Later, went back and boommm.....tidosss....
sleepy and tired of eating....

mcm nk demam....

2005-09-23T09:39:00.000+08:00

Okay, the presentation is over.
Our group's presentation was simple,
but it went well.
Though the PM was not really satisfied with it,
It's probly because the other's group presentation was kinda superb.
But, yeah, it's passed already.
No regret.
No turning back.

Now the DEMO.
Ya Allah, i feel sick....
cam demam.

Now i'm at the lab...
still revising the code.
One hour to wait for the demo.
My stomach's playing song rite now.
But i just dont have the feeling to eat anythin yet.
I'll wait after the demo, gotta get myself a nice iced choco.
Hoping that i wont black off in the demo lab after this.

I dunno why i felt so nervous, n cuak.
I know it'll end in just a few minutes.
But still, cant let my self be relax yet.

Thanks for all who wish me the best.
I'm just worried that i might let u guys down.
But still, i'll do the best that i can.
InsyaAllah.

2005-09-15T05:04:00.000+08:00

Dah lama tak de update kan....
Besides bz with uni,
was actually out of idea of what to put in the entry.

Wishlist for now:

New template for my blog

- not being fussy, but i really wanna do the skin myself
-other templates in blogskins is just not my taste
-but still, could'nt find any time to do it

Special wish for a special friend who will be flying off back to M'sia:

Nurul Syahida

a.k.a

Rabbit

Have a safe journey
We all surely will be missing u!
Hope u forget us not!
Teman ketawa di mana2
Sahabat berduka susah dicari
But u are more than that...
one in a million, probably zillion
sorry for everything,
if we can't meet again in life,
hope we can meet again in Jannah.
Insya Allah....I may not be one of the bestest friend
but u surely will be my bestest friend ever
hope our ukhuwwah stays longer
Our prayer will always be with u no matter what happens!
Selamat berjuang sahabat ku....
Bertemu berpisah kerana Allah k!!~

Gonna miss those days
with u dear!!~

Lotsa Love,

FaZzy LoGiC

special skett...

2005-09-03T00:03:00.000+08:00

Entri ni utk Rabbit aka Syahida actually...
gamba kat luar balkoni cs unit 7 kita nih.....
nanti biler dah balik mesia nanti, tgk2 la gamba2 gigam kita kalo kerinduan...ekeke...

Ko tau,
serious sgt boring biler ko takde nanti...
aku dah takde saper nk jalan gi uni sama....
takde saper nk duduk sebelah aku masa lecture....
takde org aku nk borak kalo boring time lecture...
takde member nk gigam kat tepi jalan ....

hari tuh masa gi uni,
terserempak grupmate ko,
pandang semacam jer kat aku,
mcm kesian sbb aku dah jalan sensorang....
dulu ader jer ko...
tak lengkap kalo takde....

kat umah pun nanti,
aku sorang jer nanti kat depan komputer...
dah takde ko yg slalu gelak2, nyanyi2 sama2...
dlm bilik pun nanti aku sorang je....
dah takde saper aku nk kejut subuh....
dah takde saper nk gerak aku malam2 gi studi....
dah takde saper nk kemas umah (nak harap aku....hampehh)

takpe laa...
aku tau aku kena biasakan diri camni,
ader lagi member2 kamceng di sekeliling,
just nk ko tau,
life would'nt be the same anymore....

ader lagi seminggu nih,
kita cherish the moment,
together2 k!!

MERDEKA nyerrr....

2005-08-31T07:43:00.000+08:00

Banggakah aku jadi anak Malaysia?
Rakyat ghairah beridolakan budaya syaitan
Hiburan dijadikan Tuhan,
Ulama diperkecil-kecilkan
Agama kosmetik tempelan
Buat membenarkan segala yang haram

Banggakah aku jadi anak Malaysia?
Tatkala anak-anak Melayu Islamnya
Merangkak-rangkak nak baca Fatihah
Tergagap-gagap nak ucap kalimah syahadah
Pergi disko acara mingguan
Solat? Hanya acara dwi-tahunan! (solat raya)

Banggakah aku jadi anak Malaysia?
Anak-anak muda lebih rela jadi sampah
Lebuhraya jadi padang permainan
Dadah dan arak jadi santapan
Nak kondom? Jarum suntik?
Nah...rakyat Malaysia belanja!

Banggakah aku jadi anak Malaysia
Anak-anak gadis dah hilang sifat malunya
Pakai tudung pun merendek dengan pakwe
Berlenggang-lenggok menyanyi dan berdansa
Islam kosmetik, macam tu lah jadinya!

Banggakah aku jadi anak Malaysia?
Kibar bendera sampai letih
Bersorak-sorak sampai tekak perit
Berjaga malam sampai mata sakit
Sayang segalanya kosong belaka
Kerana kita semua buta
Tak tahu entah apa yang nak dikejar

Setiap kali berakhirnya 31 Ogos
Akan bermulalah semula penjajahan minda!

Perempuan kan.....

2005-08-30T07:11:00.000+08:00

1. Perempuan itu tidak guna kain yang nipis untuk membuat bajunya, sehingga terbayang kulitnya. Kerana dia tahu, bahawa pakaian seperti itu adalah pakaian yg layak dipakai oleh perempuan jalang.

2. Perempuan memang tidak guna rantai kaki yang berloceng utk dililitkan pada kakinya. Rantai ini apabila dipakai walaupun tersembunyi tetap bergemerincing dan menarik perhatian orang lain, lebih-lebih lagi lelaki JAHAT. Dia tahu sekiranya dia memakainya juga dia telah melanggar larangan Allah dalam ayat 31 surah An-Nur.

3. Perempuan memang tidak guna minyak wangi yang baunya semerbak. Wangian sebegini mempunyai kuasa penyerakan bau yang amat tinggi kerana kadar kemeruwapannya tinggi. Biasanya kekuatan bau ini menunjukkan kadar kekompleksan rantai alcohol (secara kimia) yg digunakan utk membuat pewangi itu. Perempuan yang tidak memakai wangian yang kuat ini tahu bahawa inilah yang dipesan oleh nabi. Sabda junjungan bahawa wanita yang keluar rumah dgn memakai wangian, adalah seperti pelacur. Bukan tidak boleh berwangi-wangi tetapi bersederhanalah dlm pemakaian wangian tersebut.

4. Perempuan memang tidak guna kata-kata yang keji, kerana dia tahu sesiapa sahaja yang bercakap perkara yang keji adalah mereka yang rendah akhlaknya. Lelaki atau perempuan yang bercakap menggunakan perkataan yang buruk @ jahat, adalah seperti sepohon pokok yang rosak akar tunjangnya. Dia tahu bahawa perumpamaan perkataan yang baik dan buruk dinyatakan dengan jelas dalam ayat 24-26 surah Ibrahim.

5. Perempuan tidak guna masa berborak untuk mengatakan hal-hal orang yang disekitarnya atau dengan kata lain mengumpat, memperkatakan keabaian saudaranya. Dia tahu bahawa sekiranya orang yang suka mengumpat baik lelaki atau perempuan dia seolah-olah memakan daging saudaranya sendiri. Apakah sanggup kita memakan daging saudara sendiri? Persoalan ini ditanyakan kepada kita dalam firmanNya ayat 12. surah al-Hujurat.

6. Perempuan memang tidak guna tudung tiga segi, apabila memakainya diselempangkannya sehingga nyata bentuk perbukitan pada badannya. Sememangnya ia menjadi tatapan mata lelaki yang jahat yang terkena panahan syaitan. Dia tahu apabila bertudung, dia mesti melabuhkan tudungnya sehingga menutup alur lehernya dan tidak menampakkan bentuk di bahagian dadanya. Pesan Rasul seperti yang disuruh oleh Allah tersebut dalam ayat 59 al-Ahzab. Begitu juga seorang lelaki yang bergelar suami mesti memberi peringatan untuk isteri dan anak-anaknya.

7. Perempuan memang tidak guna lenggok bahasa yang boleh menggoda seorang lelaki. Jika bercakap dengan lelaki yang bukan mahramnya, bercakaplah dengan tegas. Jangan biarkan suara lentukku untuk menarik perhatian lelaki yang sakit dalam hatinya. Sememangnya suara perempuan bukanlah aurat, jika aurat maka Allah tidak akan menjadikan perempuan boleh berkata-kata. Bertegaslah dalam percakapan, jangan gunakan suaramu untuk menarik perhatian lelaki sehingga menjadi fitnah buatmu. Bahaya suara wanita yang bercakap dengan gaya membujuk yang boleh mencairkan keegoan lelaki (yg bukan mahramnya) dicatat dalam ayat 32 surah al-Ahzab. Makna ayatnya lebih kurang begini "?.Maka janganlah kamu tunduk dlm berbicara sehingga berkeinginanlah orang yang ada penyakit dlm hatinya dan ucapkanlah perkataan yang baik" 'Tunduk' di sini ditafsirkan sbg berbicara dgn sikap yang boleh menimbulkan kebaranian orang untuk bertindak jahat kpd mereka. "Penyakit dlm hati" adalah keinginan seorang lelaki utk melakukan perbuatan sumbang dgnnya seperti berzina. Mengapa? Lelaki sangat mudah tertarik kpd seorang wanita melalui suaranya.

8. Perempuan memang tidak guna alat make-up untuk menonjolkan kejelitaannya melainkan di hadapan suaminya sahaja. Adab bersolek (tabarruj) ini amat ditekankan kepada wanita muslim (muslimah) kerana semestinya kecantikannya adalah hak ekslusif yang mesti dipersembahkan kepada suaminya. Jika ingin keluar bekerja, dia memakai make-up secara bersederhana sahaja sehingga tidak jelas kelihatan pada wajahnya dia bersolek. Jangan bersolek sehingga cantiknya anda sehingga kadang2 wajah anda menjadi seperti hantu. Hendak bergincu? Jika bergincu, pakailah yg tidak menyerlah warnanya. atau Mengapa tidak pakai lipstick sahaja?

9. Perempuan tidak guna kain tudung yang jarang-jarang seperti jarangnya jala yang digunakan untuk memukat haiwan akuatik. Kerana apabila memakai tudung seperti ini, akan nampak juga bahagian yang sepatutnya ditutup rapi dari pandangan orang lain. Rambut adalah mahkota, tetapi jangan biarkan mahkota itu tidak 'berharga' dengan menayangkannya tanpa sebarang perlindungan. Jika mahkota berharga disimpan dengan rapi di dlam sangkar, dan ditambah pula pengwal untuk menjaga keselamatannya, maka demikian juga dengan rambut wanita. Sangkar itu adalah kain litup yang sempurna dan pengawalnya pula adalah ilmu yang diamalkan oleh anda untk memakainya dengan cara yang terbaik

**kadang2 tuh bukan kita tak tau....cuma buat2 tak tau...Nauzubillah.....

Tazkirah Hari Jumaat

2005-08-26T18:06:00.000+08:00

Dan solatlah kamu sebelum kamu di solatkan.
Tutuplah auratmu sebelum auratmu ditutup dengan kain kafan yang serba
putih.
Pada waktu itu tiada guna lagi bersedih walaupun orang yang hadir itu
merintih.
Selepas itu kamu akan diletakkan di atas lantai, lalu dilaksanakan solat
jenazah dengan empat takbir dan satu salam, berserta fatihah, selawat dan doa
sebagai memenuhi tuntutan fardhu kifayah.

Tapi; apakah empat kali takbir itu dapat menebus segala dosa meninggalkan
solat sepanjang hidup?
Apakah sholat jenazah yang tanpa rukuk dan sujud,
dapat membayar hutang rukuk dan sujud yang telah ditinggalkan?
Sungguh tertipulah dirimu jika beranggapan demikian.
Justeru sekelian muslimin dan muslimat,
Usunglah dirimu ke tikar solat.
Sebelum kamu diusung ke liang lahat,
menjadi makanan cacing dan mamahan ulat.

Iringlah dirimu ke masjid, sebelum dirimu diiringi ke pusara.
Tangisilah dosa-dosa mu di dunia,
kerana tangisan tidak berguna di alam baqa'.
Sucikanlah dirimu sebelum dirimu disucikan,
sedarlah kamu sebelum kamu disedarkan.

Dengan panggilan izrail yang menakutkan,
berimanlah kamu sebelum kamu ditalkinkan.
Kerana ianya berguna untuk yang tinggal bukan yang pergi
Beristighfarlah kamu sebelum kamu diisthighfarkan
namun ketika itu ishtighfar tidak menyelamatkan.

Ingatlah di mana sahaja kamu berada kamu tetap memijak bumi
Tuhan dan di bumbungi dengan langit Tuhan serta menikmati rezeki
Tuhan.
Justeru, bila dia menyeru, sambutlah seruannya.
Sebelum dia memanggilmu buat kali terakhirnya

Ingatlah kamu dulu hanyalah setitis air yang tidak bererti lalu menjadi
segumpal darah lalu menjadi seketul daging.
Lalu daging itu membaluti tulang lalu jadilah kamu insan yang mempunyai
erti.
Ingatlah asal usulmu yang tidak bernilai itu,
tetapi Allah mengangkatmu ke suatu mercu.
Yang lebih agung dari malaikat,
lahirmu bukan untuk dunia tetapi gunakanlah ia untuk melayar bahtera
akhirat.

Sambutlah seruan `hayyaallahsallah' dengan penuh rela dan
bersedia
Sambutlah seruan `hayyaallahfallah' jalan kemenangan akhirat dan
dunia
Ingatlah yang kekal ialah amal menjadi bekal sepanjang
jalan.
Menjadi teman di perjalananan guna kembali ke pangkuan tuhan

Pada hari itu tiada berguna harta, takhta dan putera
Isteri, kad kredit dan kereta
Kondominium, saham dan niaga
Kalau dahi tidak pernah mencecah sejadah di dunia.